that night ➳ yoonjin

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"yoongi-ah"

yoongi looked up his eyes widening once he made eye contact with the taller male

yoongi quickly grabbed his things and made sure he didn't leave anything behind before he pushed the elder's hand away and walked to class cursing at himself

yoongi couldn't lie his heart was beating fast because he heard him say his name.

he missed that voice

despite the fact that he hurt him

yoongi rushed to class before he fell for that trap and went back

once he reached his class he took out his papers he wasn't down writing

kim seokjin welcome back to my life

it's going to be a hell of a ride

yoongi began writing where he left off he was going to finish this letter.

kim seokjin do you remember the day after you asked me to be your boyfriend?

we walked hand in hand into school i was terrified i mean you were popular all the girls were after you even males there was nobody on this earth that found you unattractive i mean after all you are

kim seokjin

you gripped my hand reassuring and smiled at me

"yoongi ah you'll be okay i'm here i'll always be here"

you lied but i foolishly believed you because you meant everything i just wanted to see the good in you

"jin hyung i um i'm just worried about your popularity i mean that means nothing to me but i know that it means everything to you and you didn't even come out to your friends."

"ahh yoongi is that why you're so afraid?"

i nodded knowing there was no point of hiding and trying to act as if it didn't bother me

"listen here yoongi i want you and i have you you're all i need and want popularity means nothing when you're by my side"

i smiled but i still felt like it was so unreal

you managed to see through me

"hey everyone can y'all please look over here"

i froze everyone was now watching us many were whispering some weren't that good at being quiet and discreet

they said things like

"why is he with him?"

"who's that loser next to jin oppa?"

and before i walked away because of the humiliation

you grabbed me

and connected your soft warm lips to mine.

you took me by surprise but i soon began to kiss back

gasps were heard all over the room

people began to talk

but i had you and that's all that mattered right?

we pulled away gasping for air

and you smiled at me

"yoongi is my boyfriend i'm gay and i'm happy with him"

and with that you interlaced our hands together and we walked to my locker where all our friends were watching smiling

you made me really happy seokjin

the night we hung out

the day you kissed me

the night you asked me to be your boyfriend

the night we made love for the first time ever and all the other times

i was happy with you all the time

until that night

the night you left me

i was broken

now you're back and i don't know how to feel

i wanted you back

i needed you back

but now i feel like i need you gone

i love you kim seokjin but you will never feel the same way