that night ➳ yoonjin

xi

i walked to school that day and the school was more hectic than usual.

i didn't care.

if it didn't have to do with me i didn't care.

little did i know

it truly was an ordinary day i was with my friends they were loud as usual.

jimin was arguing with taehyung on who would approach jungkook.

i had no idea how much i missed while i was with you but these two boys had a crush on the playboy of our school.

taehyung turned to me and smiled goofy i looked up and saw you walking in with namjoon and jungkook.

jimin pushed taehyung forward making him go talk to jungkook so i guess tae was the one with the crush.

but you? you walked in and acted as if you didn't know me.

did it hurt?

obviously.

was i surprised?

no i knew it would happen after all i am a nobody.

seokjin have you ever fallen in love with someone and have to see them with someone else?

let me tell you how it feels

it feels as if you've fallen from the highest building over and over

that same day the day after you kissed me you called a girl over your table and had her sit on your lap.

you even screamed out hoseok's name to make sure i would look

you fucking kissed her

and all i could do was look away and act as if it didn't hurt me at all.

but to make things worst you came up to me and told me to walk to class with you. i wanted to deny you but i couldn't so i stood up and walked to class with you.

you spoke to me as if nothing happened i guess to you nothing has happened.

i should've known then that this was all bullshit you told me you were gay but you kissed a girl after you kissed me.

and i guess you noticed that i was off so before i could walk into class you pulled me to the janitor closet.

i remember thinking i had to run away that this wasn't going to end well but how does one run away from the person they love?

you pulled me into a fucking hug and thanked me multiple times.

"thank you for not telling anyone it's difficult having to act straight but what can we do right?"

i wanted to punch you.

you sounded so stupid.

nobody was forced to act straight you just wanted to be popular.

but who was i to judge i didn't even come out to anyone except my 3 friends.

i gave you a reassuring smile and as i was going to walk out you pulled me into a kiss.

and i kissed back.

i should've pulled away but i was in love.

i loved you seokjin.

i wanted to yell it to the whole world

I LOVE KIM SEOKJIN

but i couldn't.

so i pushed you off after i came to my right senses and left that closet.