that night ➳ yoonjin

xxiv

maybe yoongi was meant to be unhappy all he wanted was to be together with seokjin but nothing was working out.

yoongi roamed the halls of his school every single hallways reminded him of seokjin everything reminded him of seokjin

and that made yoongi happy, because the thought of seokjin was so addicting that it made him feel good but the aftertaste was bitter.

yoongi was alone he had lost hoseok and his other half although he had jimin he didn't want him to have to choose between him or hoseok so he just let him go

yoongi sighed life was bitter, he couldn't have anything it was such a sour feeling

if there was one thing yoongi could recognize was seokjin's windshield laugh

it was one of the few things that made yoongi's stomach flutter

yoongi looked up knowing that he was going to get his heart broken

sometimes he thought hoseok was right seokjin was his kryptonite but he was his addiction

he was that addiction that was so deadly because there was no cure for it

if he would have a smoking addiction he could always use nicotine patches

if he had an alcoholic addiction he would go to rehab for a couple months

but if you're addicted to your ex lover what exactly can you do

you're practically dead because nobody could help you

yoongi made eye contact with seokjin and he swore he could see seokjin's eyes shine brighter just like they did when they dated and damn was yoongi vulnerable.

they stared at each other yoongi more than anything wanted to hug him and tell him how much he loved him but he knew seokjin didn't feel the same way

so yoongi shook his head and looked down walking past him

maybe deep down yoongi hoped seokjin would try to stop him but he was once again disappointed when he heard seokjin talk like nothing had happened

but nothing had happened

so yoongi acted as if nothing happened and walked to his locker, to his surprise there was a box and a letter

he wanted to open it and make sure seokjin saw it but he also wanted to go to his safe place and have privacy

but his need for seokjin was stronger so yoongi opened the box that revealed a lunch well made with  all of yoongi's favorite food

yoongi couldn't help smile, he didn't know who it was from but it meant a lot

someone cared for him

he wasn't completely alone

so eagerly forgetting that his lover was there watching him like a vulture he opened the small letter that was decorated with small pink hearts and small flowers

he read the letter quietly to himself

dear yoongi

these past few weeks have been hell, i usually don't write letter i never had to you were always there beside me all i had to do was turn and i could tell you how i felt

but he came and he changed that damn that day honestly but you love him and maybe i should stop being so damn selfish and just accept it and help you

but yoongi its so damn difficult having to see you suffer when i'm here trying to show you everything you deserve because min yoongi you deserve so much more than what he can offer