The Elite

Chapter 19 Will You

*Chapter 19 will you*
"Who wouldn't be? I mean after all the lies, and growing up without a dad. Then, suddenly being told that "hey you have a dad". After you get told that you look back and everything. You remember the teasing, bullying, and the holiday nights with a baby sitter because your mom was at a so called convention. Then your dad finds out that you know and he starts to act all fatherly. It doesn't work like that. After you disappear from someone's life for what 16 years. You can't just come in and start acting fatherly. If you do it hurts and kills the person. It drives them to the point of this." I said pointing to my arms, and thighs. "It breaks the person down."
He looked at me.

"I don't want attention, sympathy or any of that. I just want to be cared and loved for. Not the fake kind of love or caring. The genuine kind. The kind that makes the person feel like they're flying. The kind that makes the person smile. People say that it's going to get better but every time someone says that. It all goes down," I said. He grabbed my hand. I looked at the machine.

"Look at me," He said. I didn't because I couldn't. He let go of my hand. I felt his hands on my cheeks. He turned my head and forced me to look at him. I looked at him. He smiled.

"I'm not going to say it's going to get better because I know better than that. I can tell you've been through alot and I know that I can't change what happened. What I do know is that you can change your future. You just have to be you and work hard for your future. If you do then you will be happy," He said.

"How can you be so sure?"

"Because you've been so strong up till now. You can't just quit and back out now. Don't stop halfway."

"I can always try not to."

"Don't give everything up. Work hard and solve your problems. Don't run away. Running away is never the answer. If you're alone. I'll be your shadow. Need to cry then I'll be your shoulder. Want a hug? Let me be your pillow. If you want to be happy. I'll be your reason to smile, but anytime you need me. Call me and I'll be here. Don't think I don't know you because I do. Your hard working, strong, beautiful, talented, funny, feisty, sarcastic, and smart. You never give up. You always find a reason to keep going forward. I've seen all this by how you compete and cook." He said. I looked at him in surprise. I didn't think that he would know all this. I nodded in shock.

"Thank you." I looked at the time. "It's 10:10 pm. Time flies when you're having fun. Make a wish," I said and closed my eyes.

I wish.. That I find the one that makes me happy and that he never leaves me. I wish to finally be happy.

I opened my eyes and smiled.

"You should get some rest." He said. I nodded. He got up and walked to the door. I adjusted my bed so I can sleep. He turned the lights off and laid down on the fold up bed.

*December 26, 2018*

Today I woke up to breakfast and my meds off course. Lucas and I talked more about my family, school, and competition. We talked about when I get released from here and he managed to win a very heated debate over him driving me back to the academy. I was dead set against it and he was for it. In the end he won. Oh well, I don't mind. Then after the debate he got on his laptop and finished some paperwork stuff and I went on my computer reading all the news headlines. After an hour or two of working. He finished and we talked about the New Year's Ball. He asked me if I was going and I replied with a yes. Which made him reply with a great I'll see you there. Save me your first dance. I laughed and said sure. I was honestly bummed that he didn't ask me to go with him to the Ball. Then, around 5pm he left to go get something. While he was gone the guys came and gave me the Christmas presents, and flowers they got for me. I loved all of them. After they left Carson and my family came and gave me presents, flowers and said sorry. I agreed to make things work. As long as they take it slow and give me time to adjust. I reminded them that this didn't mean that I forgave them. That this meant that I was giving them a second chance to build trust and a try to be a family. Then, after they left and Diana and Gina came. I smiled at their present for me which consisted of flowers, charm bracelet and a trio best friends necklaces. After that I told them all about Lucas. They squealed and started shipping the both of us. They kept me company and we talked.