Loving you is like SUICIDE

CHAPTER 2

"DARA!" galit na galit si dad pagkakita niyang pawindang windang akong lumakad papasok sa bahay.

"Why Dad? tsk" nakangiting sabi ko. " Ikakasal na ba ako? hahaha" sabi kong tatawa tawa.

"Gemma, pakialalay nalang si Dara sa kwarto niya" iyon lang ang sabi ni Dad tapos umalis na siya at pumunta sa kwarto niya.

"Hahaha, Gemma, ikakasal na ako sa taong di ko kilala, hahaha"

"Ma'am tama na po, lasing lang po kayo, pasok na po tayo sa kwarto niyo"

"Whatever Gem-gem, hahaha" pagkasabi ko ng mga ito bigla nalang nagdilim ang paningin ko.

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"Sorry Dara but we have to break-up because you are already getting married and I don't want to have a relationship to someone who is going to be the wife of somebody!!!" sigaw ni Jander sa akin at kitang kita sa mga mata nito ang galit.

"Jander! Hindi totoo yan! No! It's not true! I'm not getting married to somebody, ikaw ang mahal ko! I want to get married with you only!" sinabi ko sa kanya.

"Don't say those words as if they are true Dara! Can't you see? You are with your wedding dress already? Mamaya na yung kasal mo! And yet you are telling me you love me?! Is this a joke! Your such a liar!" sigaw sa akin ni Jander na galit na galit.

Pagtingin ko nga sa suot ko nakawedding dress nga ako. I was so shocked that no words came out from my mouth. What the HECK IS HAPPENING?!!! Bakit parang ang bilis ng mga pangyayari?!!!

Tapos biglang may humawak sa kamay ko, paglingon ko di ko makita yung mukha niya kasi nakayuko.

"Come on Dara, we are about to get married"

"HUH!!!???" napaupo ako bigla, pagtingin ko sa paligid ko, I'm in my bedroom...

"Ohhh....It's just a dream but I think it is going to happen" I said then suddenly tears just came running down my eyes.

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"Bakit kaya na ngayong kailangan kita mom, you're not here anymore. I badly need someone to lean on, Mom do you know that dad is hurting me so much? Pinapahirapan niya po ako, dapat kasi andito pa kayo para we'll be happy, para hindi nangyari ang lahat ng ito" I just cried while saying these words sa puntod ng mom ko.

Yeah andito ako ngayon sa cemetary where my mom's grave was burried. Telling all my problems.

Bigla nalang humangin ng malakas. I suddenly smiled and said "Thank you mom for letting me realize that you were always there for me, thank you, at least nabawasan ng konti itong dinadala kong problema, I love you Mom".

(JANDER's POV)

I'm angry...

I'm so very angry to my parents. They are the reason why I broke up with Dara, I love Daralyn so much but I really need to break up with her kasi ayaw ko siyang mas masaktan pa because of the situation where I'm in  right now dahil sa kagagawan ng mga parents ko.

I'm here drinking liqour, I didn't go to school, wala akong gana and after I left dara in the school's parking lot, I stood from a distance ang hid, I saw how she cried and it breaks my heart how hurt she was because of me.

I also cried of course, What do you expect? Tatawa ako? Hell no! Nasasaktan din ako that's why I also cried...I'm not a gay porke ba't umiyak ang lalaki bakla na? No it's not, nasasaktan din kasi kami...It's so painful to break up with her because even though I love her so much pero wala akong magagawa because I have to do this.

I went to a bar to forget this pain, nilunod ko ang sarili ko sa alak.

"Hey there handsome!" sabi ng isang babaeng nagtratrabaho ata sa bar.

"Oh hey! Come here!" I said, I have an idea.

The girl sat down on my lap then she started flirting with me. Naiinis na nga ako eh, gusto ko ng itulak ang babaeng ito at masubsub yung mukha niya sa floor pero kailangan ko kasing gawin to.

" Kiss me" I told her, she kissed me excitedly pero hindi ko sinasagot yung halik niya, then i took out my phone and took a picture of us.

( DARA'S POV)

After I went to my mom's grave nagdiretso na ako sa School namin.

"Hey Dara! Where have you been yesterday? I'm so worried about you...lalo na at ---" sabi ni bestfriend kong si Sharlom."Are you okay?" nag-aalalang tanong nito.

"Uhhh...I-I---" then tears started to fall in my eyes again.

"Oh I know, I know, I'm so sorry lyn-lyn about what happened, I'm so angry with him! Wala siyang hiya talaga! Ang sabi niya sa akin hindi ka niya sasaktan nung time na naging kayo! and I was also shocked sa mga kinakalat nilang mga pictures, tignan mo" pinakita niya sa akin yung picture which made me cry more because from it, nakatingin si Jander with smile in his face habang may kahalikang babae.

How could he do this! Habang ako ay nahihirapan sa sitwasyon ko siya naman ay nagsasaya!!! I can't believe it!!! Ganun pala totoong pagkatao niya!!! Pinaglaruan niya lang pala ako!

"Are you-" pinutol ko yung sinasabi ni Sharlom.

" I-I have to go to his room" sabi ko then iniwan ko na siya and I went straight to his room, I'm so angry with him.

I saw him there in their room sitting and chatting comfortably and laughing with his friends.

"Jander!" I shouted angrily from the top of my lungs.

Tumingin siya sakin with a smirk in his face.

"HOW COULD YOU DO T-THIS---!!!"

"How can't I? Well sorry Dara pero all was just a joke, i was playing with you! You were just a toy to me" He said then laughed while walking out of their room. Nilagpasan niya ako at patuloy pa rin sa pagtawa and I was there in pain, shocked and crying while being slapped by the whole truth.

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That's the second chapter.... I hope you enjoyed reading it...

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