Loving you is like SUICIDE

CHAPTER 4

"Bakit ikaw!?" I shouted angrily, halo-halo ang nararamdaman ko ngayon, naiinis ako, naguguluhan ako at galit na galit ako kelan ba matatapos itong paghihirap ko!?!

" Tsss...kunwari ka pang ayaw mo, Aren't you happy na ang mapapangasawa mo ay ang nag-iisa at kauna-unahang boyfriend mo? or should I say yung ex mo na ngayon?" He said sarcastically.

Bakit iba siya sa Jander na nakilala ko? I can't believe na nainlove ako sa isang katulad niya.

A devil behind a MASK!!!

Oo si Jander ang taong kasama ko sa VIP room na eto, siya pala yung inarrange sa akin, I hate it, I hate Dad for doing this to me sabagay hindi niya naman alam na naghiwalay na kami ni Jander at pinaglaruan lang ako ng lalaking ito and I think dad thought na masaya ako sapagkat si Jander nga naman ang ka-arrange marriage ko tapos pinagsalitaan ko pa siya ng masama, kaya siguro nag-oo si Dad agad sa arrange marriage na iyon kasi si Jander rin lang at hindi niya sinabi sa akin kasi masyadong namanhid at nagalit ako sa kanya at kaya pala sinabi niyang I won't regret it kasi nga si-si J-Jander rin lang pala.

" Tss...Why are you crying? tears of joy ba yan?" Jander said sarcastically again.

Hindi ko pala namalayan may mga luhang tumulo sa mga mata ko, Ughhh!!! Dapat I must be strong sa harap niya at baka isipin niyang I'm so weak.

"Ughhhh!" I shouted while I wiped my tears angrily.

"Your such a crybaby, you know its so funny when you cry makita ko palang yung mukha mo akala ko nagpapatawa ka, ahahahahah!" sabi niyang tumatawa.

Tumalikod na ako, I can't take it anymore, gusto ko na siyang sampalin but my hands are so weak, my whole body is so weak. I was about to open the door when he said...

" Hindi ka pwedeng tumalikod sa arrange marriage na ito Miss Mercado because your businesses are on crisis and the only way to save it is by marrying the richest businessman's son in the Philippines which is me, oh by the way once you step outside that door, well the deal is off, ofcourse."

"Huh?! Why are you telling me this?! And why are you helping us?! Pakialam mo ba?! Maybe you are just toying with me again?!" I said angrily pero nakatalikod parin ako habang patuloy ang pagtulo ng luha ko.

"Well my father is a good friend of your father, napilitan nga lang ako kahit ayaw ko because I want to enjoy my life pero when Dad said that I can handle one of our businesses which is the one that I wanted the most since I was high school that's why nakideal ako agad at sabi niya its just papers lang naman meaning were just going to be married by papers and NO ONE will know that we are married so I agreed" sabi niya habang tumatawa pa.

Grabe! Ang sakit niyang magsalita pero hindi ko siya pinatulan.

On crisis nga ba yung mga business namin? Kung totoo ito lang ang paraan para matulungan ko si dad, I know how much hard work and effort he did para lang mapatayo at mapalago ang mga business namin so even if I don't like it I can't do anything about it because our businesses depends on me right now, nakasalalay ang mga business namin dito.

I sighed and said"Okay I'll stay and I'm gonna marry you"

Humarap ako at tinignan siya, nakangiti siya suddenly my heart beated so fast...ughhh....I have to stop this feeling, ginagawa ko lang ito para sa mga business namin at para kay Dad.

"Ikakasal tayo after Graduation" biglang sabi niya habang tumitingin sa menu.

"WHAT??!!! Bakit agad agad!?" I said surprised.

"Eh kung gusto mong mawala na yung business niyo edi huwag na" sabi niyang parang walang gana.

"Okay fine" inis na sabi ko pero ang ipinagtataka ko sa sarili ko I feel at ease when I'm with him....I hate this feeling bakit kaya na everytime a person is inlove with someone even if you want to move on from it because they are the reason why you are in pain hindi mo parin siya kayang kalimutan kasi siya pa rin ang laman ng puso mo....I HATE IT.

I just kept quite and concentrated in tapping my cellphone.

"skies are crying, i am watching

catching tear drops in my hands

only silence as its ending,

like we never had a chance

do you have to make me feel like

there's nothing left of me " (skycraper)

Napayuko ako pagkarinig ko ng kantang iyan grabe patama ba ito sa akin? Ganyan pa talaga ringtone niya...naiiyak ako, hindi niya ba alam kung gaano kasakit itong ginagawa niya sa akin?

"Hello?!" he said in a happy tone.

Nakinig lang ako.

"Ahh? Oo, uhmm babes asan ka ngayon?" tanong niya sa kausap niya.

Ouch...It hurts! My tears just dropped...Why am I always crying?...

"Uhh-Uhhmmm...I-Ihi lang ako" I said and I quickly went out of the room.

(JANDER's POV)

After she went out, I ended the call quickly...Naiinis ako sa kapatid ko, tumatawag bigla bigla.

Yeah the caller is my younger brother...galit na galit nga nung tinawag kong babes...haha...well hindi ito time para tumawa...I hurt Dara again, wala akong magagawa, Im doing this for her, hindi naman talaga nasa Crisis ang business nila I just made that as a reason, the reason is more critical...more dangerous...

Nasasaktan din naman ako sa sitwasyon namin mas lalo na at ako pa ang dahilan kung bakit palaging umiiyak si Dara.

When Dara came back her eyes were so red, I know I made her cry again.

The time went on until It was time for us to go home. Ihahatid ko si Dara lasing na lasing na siya, after she went in our room ang dami niyang inorder na alak.

We are in my car right now, iyong car niya pinadrive ko nalang sa driver namin papunta sa kanila.

"Dara" I said.

"Yeah? tsk" she said then looked at me.

"I am doing this because there is a reason" I said while looking at her, I sighed. I stopped the car outside their house.

"Okay" she said and smiled "I believe you"

After she told me those words naramdaman ko nalang na basa na yung pisngi ko. I hugged her suddenly...

Bigla siyang humagulgul ng iyak...

"Bakit? Bakit ako sinasaktan ng ganito ni Jander? Mahal na mahal ko siya...ang sakit...ang sakit isipin na pinaglaruan niya lang ako...I can't believe na lahat pala ng pinakita niya sa akin noon ay laro lang" she said sobbing.

Me? I was just listening, I was crying silently while hugging her tightly...parang tinutusok yung puso habang sinasabi niya lahat ng iyon.

"I-I know" I said then I slowly kissed her lips passionately, Oh how I loved this girl and how I missed her kisses.

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