PTSD; Markbam (Completed)

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Mark's POV
I wake up the next day, how did I get on the bed? "Oh you're awake, I brought you here when you passed out in the tub..." bambam said. I nod and got off the bed. "I-I made you breakfast if you're hungry," he said and sighed as he grabbed his jacket "I have to go to work, sorry, I'll see you later.... I love you, bye" he said and kissed my cheek. He backed away and stared at me as I stood there, silently. I pat his shoulder awkwardly and walk into the bathroom. I think I heard him sniffle before he left the room. I can't keep looking at him without feeling terrible, sad, and hurt. I hope he tries to talk to me to find out what's wrong, I know he was hurt on how I didn't say bye or i love you, or even have a nice day at work.

I called my friend Jackson over because I felt paranoid and alone. "So I was thinking tonight, you,bambam, me, and jinyoung can go to a bar!" I hold the couch pillow closer to me and stare into outer space. "Mark?" "H-Huh?" I ask and turn to him. "You ok? You seem out of it today, did something happen between you and bambam this morning?" I sigh and face my body towards him. "I-I.... T-This morning he was going to work..... I silently watched him leave.... He said bye and I love you..... B-But I didn't say it back...." I whimper and bury half of my face in the pillow "I f-felt bad...." I said and Jackson patted my shoulder. "Why didn't you say it?" he asked softly. "I..... I don't know.." he tilted his head and removed his hand from my shoulder. "Do you still love him?" my eyes widen and I almost threw the pillow. "Of course I fucking do! That's my entire existence right there! Don't question my love for bambam ever! I love him more then i love myself.... He means so much to me..." "woah, calm down, I was just trying to find out why you didn't say I love you, chill" Jackson said and holds his hands up in a defensive manner. "I'm sorry... Maybe its best if you go home..." I said and he sighed. "Mark what's wrong? I'm your best friend, talk to me" "can I to trust you?" I whisper. He looked hurt but nodded.

After I told him everything, he looked heart broken. "M-Mark.... Oh Mark you poor thing, I'm so sorry this happened to you!" Jackson cried. I let my tears fall as he pulls me in for a hug. "Jackson.... You can't tell bambam or anyone else.." "are you insane?! Bambam has to know or he'll find out!" "no Jackson! This will kill him! It'll hurt him and I don't want to see him cry, I-I don't want to lose him.... Jackson promise you won't tell him!" I beg and cry in front of him. "For fuck sake I know I will regret this but fine.... But you have to tell him" I sigh.

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What did Mark tell him?