Look At Me -xxxtentacion X reader-

Chapter thirteen.

-Readers POV-

I look at Jahseh and smirk. As my thoughts are cloudy and messy, I just continue my actions without any really given thoughts.
I lay my hand down on one of his thighs and cuddle up to him. I realize his chest starts to move up and down a bit faster than before. I start to rub his thigh slowly and then giggle. He looks at me with a blank expression and then grabs my face and pulls it towards him. Our lips, our faces, are just centimeters away from touching. He just stares into my eyes as our heavy breaths mix together from excitement. In a moment like this, there's always something to ruin it, like Meg screaming because she saw a dog on tv.

I glare at her, but yawn. My eyes water as I rub my eyes tiredly. I'm starting to get sluggish from all that I have been drinking.

"I'm going to bed now. Meg, you can have the 1st guest bedroom. You know where it is. Ski and Sza, you two have to share a room because I only have one extra room for Jahseh." I say while looking at them. Meg nods, yawns, then gets up and heads to her bedroom. Jahseh shakes his head no.

"Nahhh, my nigga can have his own room. I'll just share with you." He says while getting up and then stands next to me. Sza sighs happily. I shrug.

"Well, okay. I'll show you your rooms. I'm too tired to argue," I say and drag my feet across the floor to the stairs. Meg's bedroom is downstairs. She likes it because it's right near the kitchen so she doesn't have to be loud to get something.
After we get to the top of the steps, Ski chose the room on the right, closest to the steps and Sza chose the room on the left closest to the steps. My room is all the way in the back. I tend to choose rooms that are in the back.
They go to bed while Jahseh follows me into mine. Once we're both in I shut the door and lock it.

"You don't mind if I lock it do you?" I ask. He doesn't seem to care so I go on with what I do. I grab some clothes and a towel since I want to take a shower.
"I'll be out in a bit, I just want to relax before I go to bed. Take a look around, my music doc is on my drawer over there." I say while pointing to two speakers sitting on top and a bluetooth speaker.
"Play anything you want to," I add.

I go into the bathroom and lock the door after I shut it. I turn on my phone and hook it back up to the speakers in here. I know I already took one, but I don't need to wash my hair, so I'm going to put on my shower cap. I do so and step in the shower once the music starts to play and the shower is warm. Elephant In The Room starts to play. I lean back against the cold shower tiles and sing along to the chilling song.

-Lyrics-

Star fall, fear calls waiting on you I'd never run
Kiss, fuck, I won't feel I doubt that I would ever want
Hold me, kiss me, fuck me, you don't wanna love
Haunt me, hang me, love me I don't ever love

There's an Elephant In this Room
There's an Elephant In this Room
There's an Elephant In this Room
There's an Elephant In this Room
There's an Elephant In this Room
There's an Elephant In this Room
There's an Elephant In this Room
There's an Elephant In this Room

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I open my eyes after not realizing at first that they were not open. I shut off the water and step out onto the soft rug I have and grab my towel. I quickly dry my hair as much as I can and then my body. I put on my clothes and leave off my bra because who the fuck wears bras to bed?
I shake my head from the thought. I open the door, after turning off the music, to see Jahseh laying on my bed while staring at the ceiling. Music plays softly, but loud enough to hear it and enjoy it. I put my clothes in the hamper and sit down next to him on the edge. My hair is up in a bun now. I dim the lights and then nudge him to scoot over. I get under the covers and pull them up under my chin and sigh. Jahseh turns to face me and then pulls me close to him. Light snores come from his mouth as I realize he was actually asleep this whole time. Then my thoughts began to wonder and think for themselves.