"I visited Grayson yesterday. I've kind of been... avoiding him for the past month. He's just such a mirror of you in every possible way and I couldn't handle it. I still can't.
Anyway, he's still a complete mess, no different than the way I am and just about everyone else that was close to you. The two of us could barely speak to each other; we just kind of sat in silence for an hour before that seemed too deafening and I had to leave.
It hurts even more because I feel like I'm losing two people. Grayson was my best friend too, and now neither of us can stand to be together for too long because both of us are missing pieces of ourselves in the shape of you and an elephant in the room has taken its place in your absence. We can't talk about you because it hurts, but we can't talk about anything else because nothing else seems to matter anymore when we're waiting to find out if you're even going to survive.
I just need you to wake up."
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this book only has about 5 more chapters omg
YOU ARE READING
breathe me (e.dolan)
Fanficin which a sad girl leaves voicemails for a dying boy hoping that one day, maybe, he'll pick up the phone. completed august 23, 2017 voicemail format, lowercase intended
