The next morning I jumped right out of bed and eat breakfast like our chickens would dad stared at me weirdly then his eyes filled with realization.
"Ellie and jared are in town" he ran a hand through his hair "I totally forgot"
"Jackson didn't tell me till last night" I said a mouth full of eggs dad gave me a look and I swallowed my food "Sorry"
"Your mother raised you better then to talk with your mouth full" I smiled remembering my mother's eye roll whenever me or finley did I could tell finley was thinking the same thing because he started laughing.
"Remember the time we caught mom talking with her mouth full and her face was so red she looked like a strawberry" dad smirked at the idea and kelsey excitedly tagged in "Mom was a strawberry?!?" We laughed at her and shook our heads "No she just looked like one" I said finley calmed himself from laughing and looked over by our T.V where a picture of her hang "...I miss her." dad looked at finley and took his hand in his "So do I ....we all do...but she's watching us we know that"
"...what if she isnt" he spoke softly he looked up at dads shocked face...I was shocked as he continued "What if gods..not real"
Dad went to explain to him but I couldnt hear it I sat up so fast grabbing my phone and head phones I looked finley right in the eyes then ran down the hall to my bedroom slamming it shut I leaned against the door breathing heavily...There is a god and my mother is in heaven...how dare finley say that...theres a heaven why wouldnt there be theres no way we just die ...we lose our spirits theres no way.I plugged my headphones in and clicked a song "Scars" by my dad...mom talks in this song ..I fast forwarded to moms part and kept rewinding it when it finished ....I can hear dads voice everyday but I dont hear her everyday...I kept punching the floor
"I felt lost..." I heard mom say for the tenth time and i watched a tear drip out of my eyes
"Momma..." The door shock behind my back and i got up and answered it to see my uncle jimmy I took a headphone out and sat in my desk chair looking at my feet.
"Your dad told me what finley said...Ollie....." He started but stopped a little more stern "Oliver look at me"
I looked up at my uncle..my mothers best friend
"Ollie..you boys were so young when she died and you both are still as in mourning as if it happened yesterday and we give you all the time you need to mourn....and finleys at the age where questions like that do come up. " I was silent just staring at him He sighed and looked at my wall. "Oliver ....you know Missy-..your mom"
"She's in heaven" I whispered there's no way she isnt I could feel her presence everywhere and anywhere theres somthing holding her in its arms I know it
(UPDATE)
Short I know and I am sorry its been a few months after we moved i started having trouble with depression and I wanted to come back but I couldnt but im back now the next chapter is already started and should be to you by next friay 11-24-17 I will do my best to have it up then or earlier thanks for dealing with me love you all bye <3
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Hayran KurguOliver James Lanning is now a 15 year old boy. 5 years ago His family gave up vlogging after the death of his mother in labor with his youngest sibling Kelsey Melissa Lanning. This deals with Ollie dealing with the death of his mother.
