❝I NEED TO STOP WISHING THAT YOU'LL LOVE ME BACK, BECAUSE THERE'S A REASON WHY YOU DON'T LOVE ME ALREADY. AND I GUESS THAT REASON WILL ALWAYS BE HERE.❞
Rosé was irrevocably head over heels for her best friend, Tom Holland. The only problem? He...
( okay but no this chapter will make you all love me to bits )
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RAIN CHAPTER FIFTY NINE ❝FALLING DEEPER INTO THE NIGHT, A NEVER-ENDING PROMISE THAT YOU SENT OFF WITH A GOODBYE. EVEN THE RAIN IS FALLING SO DREADFULLY, I COPE WITH IT PAINFULLY, AS I WATCH AND STARE, IT'S POURING DOWN. I GO BACK TO TIMES WHEN YOU WERE STILL WITH ME, FALL INTO THE MEMORIES, I SEE YOU PERFECTLY APPEARING IN THE RAIN.❞
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Hesitance was never Rosé's best suit. It made her feel vulnerable, weak, indecisive. It brought her to her knees as choices surrounded her, taunting her. The days of the past mocking her for being so stupid. Maybe it was because there were so many options that seemed too good to be true, so many results that were tempting.
She was under contract at this point. It wasn't like she could tell Tom about the news beforehand. It was only ironic and coincidental that the day she tells Tom and the entire world is the day where she'd fly to another country. She wonders what Tom would think about her new occupation. There's no doubt that her best friend will be happy for her, but she couldn't help but wonder if he'd be mad about the fact that she was leaving without telling him.
Because truth be told she's terrified. She's terrified of the future of their friendship and what it may hold for them. Maybe it's because there was no clear sight on what it may hold and maybe that's what frustrates her the most. There was no guarantee that she'll move on, there was no guarantee that he'll fall in love with, there was no guarantee that he won't find a new girlfriend.
Camille Abbott was, no, is, the perfect girlfriend for Tom. She was amazing in almost every way that it's baffling that they broke up. Rosé honestly prepared herself to be the best man at Tom's wedding.
Yes the best man, Harrison has absolutely nothing on her.
It was almost this torturous game, the pain was really something she wasn't prepared for. It was obvious. She was preparing herself for the pain that may come along seeing her best friend get married, the pain of meeting more future girlfriends, the pain of realizing that there may be girls better than Camille Abbott.
Because she can talk about moving on as much as she wants, it doesn't guarantee that she can, that she has the ability to do so. Words are just words until they're put into action, something she hasn't done yet.
How hypocritical is it of her to preach self love and self worth when she herself hasn't even realized it. She can't say she'll move on when all she wants to do is find home in his arms once more. It's stupid, so stupid that she can't fix herself for her own sake.
Maybe she's pathetic for running away, but was it so bad? Rosé knew she couldn't stay with him, be around him. The feelings won't go away, not when he's around, every fiber of her being screaming to stay with him, to tell him. She doesn't trust herself around him, not anymore. Not when her heart feels like it's being ripped apart whenever she's around him.
