I'm having a panic attack everything is so bad and I can't breathe I can hardly see through my tears and I don't want to complain but I don't know how to talk to anyone and I just really hate myself so much so hey hi what's going on I'm trying to calm down but I can't and my heart hurts so bad and I screwed up so much like usual and my dad's going to be so mad at me what if he yells at me I really can't take him yelling at me he's terrifying when he's mad he's never hit me before but what if he does I'm so scared I don't know what to do and my chest is tightening up I can't breathe I can't breathe Ohmygod everything is okay I just need to calm down and stop making a big deal out of fucking everything god why can't I ever do anything right I'm shc a piece of garbage and I keep spelling everything wrong and my cheeks are tear stained and I'm taking deep breaths now it's sort of working but I know I need to tell them and I'm worried they're gonna come for me and it's gonna be so bad and it's all my fault it's always my fault I literally can't do a single thing right I'm so fucking stupid I hate myself and shit I'm crying again mom I'm so sorry you asked if I'm okay and I'm not I'm really really not and you're gonna eventually notice the huge problem I created and yell at me because I didn't stop or tell you right away but I panicked and I couldn't think straight and I messed up so bad this time please don't hate me please please please please please ple
Look I'm sorry just ignore me hopefully this will all blow over and I can just move on
As fucking if
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I'm Really Bored
DiversosThis will be where I write random crap when I get bored (which happens ALOT) So enjoy me being insane at midnight? Yeah, that sounds about right haha
