Diary Of A Nonbinary

I want death (joking)

I live in a VERY homophobic and transphobic town with only like 10 lgbt+ people in it. As a result, I'm only out as nonbinary to 3 people.

1) My best friend.
This person has been my best friend for like 10 or more years now and they're genderfluid. When I first started questioning my gender, they were the person I went to first. After I had it all figured out, I asked them to call me Kris and use they/them pronouns. Well, it's been like a week or two and they still call me by my birthname and my birth pronouns. I know they're trying to call me by the right name and pronouns, but still it makes me want to die.

2) My lesbian friend.
I have a friend that recently told me she's lesbian. I recently told her I was nonbinary and she didn't know what it meant so I said "It means I'm neither a boy or a girl" and she said "Okay." Like I haven't told her to call me Kris yet, but she never really says my name when talking to me so...

3) My science teacher.
Despite the fact I live in a homophobic and transphobic town, my science teacher is VERY accepting of lgbt+ which makes me super happy. I just finished my first week of school and my school system is really weird like we have A days with five classes and B days with five different classes and like the first day will be an A day then the next will be a B day...so on and so forth. Well, I have science on a B day and I was too scared to tell my teacher that I go by Kris and everything, but she gave us these all about me sheets and one of the questions was "if you could tell [teacher's name] anything privately, what would it be." and I told her that I'm nonbinary and everything there. We had to turn them in on Thursday so she didn't call me Kris on the second (and last) B day either. Hopefully she will next time I'm in her class.

But yeah, now you can see why this chapter is called "I want death". (Because people always call me by my birthname and birth pronouns) *sigh*