Diary Of A Nonbinary

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Should I do a face reveal? I kinda want to, but I'm probably not gonna do one unless people actually want me to.

Just warning you, I'm not very attractive. And I know people say that all the time and they're actually like the most attractive person in the world, but I'm serious. I get compliments about my appearance very seldom, which is fine with me but I mean I'm just trying to prove a point.

Anywho, if you want to know what I look like then you can leave a comment or whatever.
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Okay so I realised today that my social anxiety (that my mother won't take me to the freaking hospital to see if I like actually have it or not but I'm pretty sure I do and you'll see what I mean when I tell you the rest of the story) is worse than I thought. So last time I had science we had a sub and like all we did was work on a stupid science magazine thing which was great and all, but our teacher said to turn it in before we left and the agenda on the board said to turn it in when we were done. Well, when the bell ran I wasn't finished with it and I didn't know if I was supposed to turn it in or not. I didn't. And I swear like everyone else did.

You might not see what's so bad about that, but the way I'm thinking is it will be really embarrassing if I'm the only one who didn't turn it in and just ugh. Just thinking about being called out as  the only person who didn't turn their paper in makes me feel sick and embarrassed.

I mean now that I think about it, tomorrow is the first day back at school since the weekend because we got out for Labor day, so she probably hasn't graded anyone's paper and probably won't until the end of the day tomorrow or even the next day. And if that's true, the teacher won't call me out and say "where the heck is this paper?" because she won't know I haven't turned it in and then I can just ask her if she needs it...That made me feel so much better.

But yeah is it really bad that I was anxious about being the only person who didn't turn it a paper? Do I need to go to the hospital and make sure I have social anxiety and like get medicine for it?

Now I'm embarrassed that I didn't see the flaw in my logic 😂

Anyways, hope everyone had a good day. Stay awesome my friends.

~Kris