per ☹ fect // zalfie

per ☹ fect

But I'm only human

And I bleed when I fall down

I'm only human

And I crash and I break down

Your words in my head, knives in my heart

You build me up and then I fall apart

'Cause I'm only human

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If you are depressed you are living in the past. If you are anxious you are living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the present.

I guess im depressed,anxious and obessed over fashion.

A lot of terrible things happen in this world. Days pass and go leaving memories. We enjoy the happiest ones, bringing laughter and smiles. We try our hardest to forget the bad ones, however they leave a mark in our minds making them a little bit too upsetting to remember. They always lerk in the back of our minds.

Everyone has bad memories, don't they?

I have many... A thousand and one memories flashed in front of my eyes,keeping them secerts forever.

"We're here" the driver spoke in his strong North London accent as he reverse back. I nodded tucking a stand of my ombré hair behind my ear. "Would you like me to help you with your suitcase?" He asked politely.

"No thank you" I mumbled quietly, closing the taxi door dragging my suitcase out of the back. Then leaving us outside a silver gate with ' Italia college ' in bright bold letters on the front. "Joe i don't think i can do this" i sais regretting my desicion to apply for this dream school.

"Zoe hundreds of teens apply for this school only handful get picked. We're the lucky ones" Joe reasuring me as he dragged his suitcase along the path made out of gravel. I shortly followed, deeply breathing as i entered the school, finding ourself by the receptions front desk area.

"Mr and Miss sugg?" a mid 40s old lady asked looking down through her glasses at us. We nodded as she gave us a small smile before looking down at her keyboard typing fastly. "If you like sit down over there, your guides will be here shortly" she offered pointing her skinny finger over at two leather seats on the oppsite side of the room. "Joe and Zoe" she added.

"thanks" we said in unsion quitely, i knew i was extremly nervous and was surpise to see Joe qutie normally he would be loud and bubbly. "were lucky" i whispered to him as we rested agaisnt the black leather chairs with our suitcases filled with clothes,items and books from home. We have been waiting for longer than half and hour and Joe, who is very impatient, started to get annoyed. My eyes scanned the room admiring the surroundings. Teachers and students walked around the busy room, smiling,laughing,chatting.

"How long does it take to find two students to guide us around?" Joe voiced raised louder for the receptionist to hear. Neither could I understand how hard it was for someone to show us around and to our rooms. The receptionist was in her mid 40s, her hair must have been dye blonde as darkish roots were shining through the top of her head. She wore elegant makeup, her lips were painted red to match her burgundy dress.From the name tag her name was Bella.

"I'm sorry, only couple more minute" she said in her bitter sweet tone. I waited like a patient person, Joe decided to stand up folding his arms and walk towards the receptionist desk.

"What courses are you here for them?" she plucked her fading red lips together,her eyes analysing Joe and I with an unapproved look.

"Im doing my a-levels" Joe admitted, as he strode back to me.

"I'm here for beauty" I said in a quite voice . She smiled then typed on the keyboards incredibly fast, her painted pink nails seemed to to fly across the board. Then reached out dialling the phone on her desk.

"Can't you place them in a room together?" She spoke to the phone,Joe and I glanced looks before looking back at Bella who facial expressions seemed to drop. "Yes I will inform them" she nodded then placed the phone down." Joe you will be sharing with Alfie Deyes and Jack Harries". Joe bit his lip and nodded looking over at me.

"And Zoe?" He asked for me, his voiced wobbled. I knew he would worry about me being with new people,especially with my anxiety attacks.

"Zoe" she took a deep breath before looking me in the eyes. "You will be the room opposite you brother with Louise, she is a very bubbly person and who is also studying beauty" she comforted me.

"ill be fi" my sentence got intrupted as a chaos of laugther filled the room as a group of boys strutted in. Not noticing me, they all crowding around Joe.

"boys" Bella called out they all ignored her as they carried on making eye contact with Joe as he slowly chewed his gum.

"Joe Sugg?" the middle boy asked pushing back his freshly cut brown hair.

"yeah" Joe responded leaning back in the leather chairs.

"ive heard about you, " a small smile plastered on the boys face. Joe was know as a popular from our last school, he was the school rebbled and usually handing around with people from other schools.

"Jack" Joe ovbisily knew Jack as they both fist punched. "Marcus Butler,Alfie Deyes" Joe smiled nodding at each boy.

Alfie Deyes, the named made my heart miss a beat.

Weird huh?