per ☹ fect // zalfie

per ☹ fect

I've only had one true friend, my brother Joseph. Growing up we spent most of our days together, with only a year gap we rarely argue. We were like identical twins, always protecting each other's back. Midnight he would crawl in my bed as we listen carefully to our parents blazing augments. Even though they didn't love each other, Joe and I loved them.

But now my own brother wasn't speaking to me.

"just leave her" I heard a mumble say as the door shut, I woke in a faze looking around the empty room. Then noticing the clock 8:00am breakfast would be served in 10 minutes, even though with hunger in my belly.I ignored the pain I couldn't sit with the rest of them smiling, knowing that Louise,Tanya and Joe hated me. Yawning, I quickly fixing the bed sheets and shuffled around for a towel.My bare feet met the bathroom titles, sending shivers up my spine. I threw the towel onto the side as I splashed my face with cold water. Then squeezed toothpaste onto my toothbrush, brushing until the minty taste came to strong. Spitting into the sink then rinsing my mouth out, before stripping out my pjs and into the shower adjusting the water temperature. Washing my body including my hair i walked out of the steamy glass space and wrapped the soft towel around my body, I quickly dried off. Blow drying my hair in the reflection of the mirror the slipping on a my school uniform.

I hate Mondays

Change that

I hate school

I crept into Mrs Brook textiles class five minutes late. "Zoe Sugg" she called out peering up from her desk at me. "Any reason why you were late?" She asked chewing the end of her pen in her mouth.

"I lost track of time" I said in a small voice as I took a seat in the empty corner closest to her desk.

"She was with Jack" Tanya sniggered. With a heavy sigh Mrs Brook went back to explaining our new project on the whiteboard. I pulled out my sketch book and scribble down notes and sketches. A small piece of crumbled paper landed on my desk, I unfolded it carefully before reading the note serval times.

meet me on the field after lesson, just us two.

L x

I shifted my weight in my seat turning back at Louise mouthing 'alright' a small smile appeared on her face as I turned back blankly.Soon enough, the bell rang dismissing class, I headed out of the class and to the bottom of the schoolyard. I fumbled in my pocket for my phone, just In case Louise changed her mind.

"I thought you wouldn't come" Louise said as she approached me, I looked up from my phone as she sighed. "I need to know what's going on between you and everyone else".

"Why do you care anyway?" I huffed.

"Because your meant to be my best friend" she said softly. "Tell me please"

"You and Tanya both called me a slut, Joe hates me because I got drunk" I spilled out. "Happy?" I questioned as she shook her head.

"I didn't mean to call you a sl"

"You didn't mean for me to overhear" I corrected her,

"no" she mumbled. "Yeah" she paused again. "I'm sorry Zoe, I know your not a slut you only slept with Jack because you were drunk. I can totally understand you can't control. Your body he just used you".

"Well thanks for finally believing me" I said sarcastically.

"Your still my chummy" she said quietly. "I can't stand to see you being used, I'm sorry I wasn't there. What happened tell me?"

"It's nothing to worry about" I lied. "I've got to go I'm going to be late for my next class" I said quickly making an excuse to walk away.

"Zoe" A male voice called as I unlock my locker, breathing heavily I turned around noticing Jack with a smirk on his face.

"What do you want?" I snapped.

"Woah someone's on there period" he muttered before laughing. "What's wrong sweetheart?"

"Everything, Louise, my brother, school, us".

"Us?" He questioned scratching his head.

"Now everyone thinks I'm a slut and that you used me" I confessed as Jack chuckled.

"I didn't use you baby" he whispered running his hand across my cheeks. "you know my rooms free, Alfie and Joe are out".

"No" I shock my head. "Look Jack, you really good looking and popular. I don't want to just junk into your bed when Becky isn't free"before I could finish my sentence his lips parted pressing them against mine forcefully. My effect was worthless trying to break and unable to catch my breath. I felt panic control my body.

"Let her go" someone shouted, dragging Jack away from me.

"Alfie mate, spoil the moment" he smirked winking over at me, making my body cringe.

"Spoil the moment for you, saving her" Alfie spat out pushing Jack hard in the chest.

"Somebody jealous" Jack said smugly, he took a few steps towards me resting his lips against my forehead. "I'll see you tomorrow sweetheart" he whispered but still loud enough for Alfie to hear as he strode down the corridor through the doors.

"Are you ok?" Alfie asked stupidly of course I wasn't ok.

"not really" I whimpered letting a spill of tears running down my cheek.

"I have no more lessons today" Alfie mumbled. "come back with me and we'll talk there" he ordered me as he placed his hand around my arm. We silently walked out of the school and into the dorm room section, slowly walking passed the empty door rooms until stopping as Alfie unlocked the door. "Where has my best friend Zoe been the last few days?" He titled his head to the side as we both sat inches apart.

"nowhere" I bit my nails, as Alfie placed his oversized hand on my knee.

"Zoe, your not talking to Louise,Tanya,Jack or Joe. It's me Alfie" he reassured me. "I care about you like my own sister".

He had sibling zoned me.

"I can tell your hurting inside, something or someone has damaged you" he said softly.

"Someone" I breath out. "everything is just a mess" I wept as I leant my head against Alfie's chest. Alfie comforted me with all the bittersweet lies saying 'it's okay' 'keep strong' 'everyone loves you'.

"Shh shh" he said trying to calm my crying, catching my breath I sucked in my checks. "I know a young person who is missing there sister a lot" he gently rocked me.

"Who?"

"Joseph Sugg" his nose twitched as a smile came across his face. "He's been wondering round for days after your 'private talk' upset and keeps looking at the crumbled picture in his sock draw.

I knew what Alfie meant by crumbled picture.

The one of me,Joe,dad&mum at Isle of White.

"I'm useless" I cried harder.He pressed a thumb underneath eyes, wiping away the stained tears."I've made my brother depressed".

"Don't say that Zo"

"I have, it's my fault I got drunk the slept with Jack. I'm had the reputation of a slut now" I said truthfully.His cold hands touched my neck titling my head, bringing my nose to the brim of his.

"Don't beat yourself up beautiful " Alfie realised the words out of his mouth, I stare at them then

His lips were kissable.

Very kissable.

Our lips attached, mashing them together until our noses were the source of oxygen passing though. His chest pressed against mine as the faint stubble scratched my chin. One of his hands managed to press it's self at the curve of my bum. His lips brushing away from me gasping for air. "can this work?" He said in his husky voice.

"I don't know" I whispered with guilt filling my eyes, I didn't want to hurt Alfie