per ☹ fect // zalfie

per ☹ fect

Don't give up darling, you're worth it

"I'm begging you, Joe please" I pleaded.

I froze blinking my eyes open, staring at the cream celling surrounded in a puddle of sweat. Sighing, I rubbed my hands over my face, trying to rub away the memories that caused me hurt and frustration.

Stupid nightmare.

"Zoe are you awake?" A muttered came from the far left corner.

"yeah" I said quietly.

"are we Chummys again?" Louise sniffed sounding like she been crying.

"yeah" a small smile came across my face.

"Fresh start, forget about the past" she said cleverly, there was a grump from the bed beside Louise as the brunette stirred in her sleep.

"Deal" I breath out shutting my eyes tight.

The sun shone bright as I dialled my fathers mobile number, it was several months since I spoken him. I promise Louise that we was going to have a fresh start, that meant be happier and fixing problem with the people I cared about the most.

"hello?" The familiar voice spoke unsure who was calling.

"Dad it's me, Zoe" i nervously replied, he coughed.

"Zoe" he said slowly. "How are you? Are you calling cause you need money again" he said sarcastically.

"No dad" I said firmly. "I'm fine, I'm at college now" I said proudly.

"How did you afford that? Sell you body".

"No wi- with" I paused as my dad told me to hurry my answer. "Mum lost the battle to cancer few weeks after you got with your new girlfriend, the money she left funded me and Joe in a top college".

The phone fell silent.

"I'm sorry Zo" he finally replied.

"Sorry can't bring mum back, but I want my dad back".

"Zoe it's not that simple" he huffed. "See me and Megan are having our first child and getting married soon" he trailed off. "Megan dosent need the stress of you and Joe".

"But dad were your children"

"And Megan's new baby is mine as well, I'm sorry Zoe"

"Stop saying sorry" I wept.

"You and Joe don't need to me, you got each other" he said. "As I said before I'm sorry, I was a bad parent to you, I can't have that for my new baby".

"Is it a boy or a girl" I asked.

"It's a girl" he said quietly.

"I hope she finds out how useless you are as father" I cried, ending the call.

It's was only me.

My father hates me.

My brother hates me.

My mother left me.

Ignoring first lesson bell, I made my way out of the school and to my dorm in a dreamlike daze. I collapsed on the bed, my eyes shedding silent tears. I wasn't Zoe Sugg anymore. Everyone that had meant something to me were gone.

Good start to my fresh life.

There was soft on is on the oak door as I clambered off my weeping pit opening the the oak door which felt heavier than usual.

"Zoe" Alfie wrapped his muscular arms around my petite frame, letting the tears roll from my bloodshot eyes I rested my head in his chest.

"You are always here at the times I need someone" I whispered as a small smile appeared on my face.

"I don't want my princess crying" he chuckled lightly, shutting the door behind him with his foot. "When I found our you wasn't at first lesson I came sprinting up here. I needed to see if you were ok, are you ok? Was last night just a mistake cause I really feel something towards you. But you and Jack"

"Alfie I need you" I whispered. "My emotions and feelings are all mixed up in a whirlpool but something is clear" I paused her letting Alfie eyes drop. "Everything in my life has been turned around, I have never opened up to something like this before" my hands started to shake as Alfie whispered 'that he is here'. "My father absolutely doesn't want either me or Joe in his life. My mother she was an alcoholic then few months ago died of cancer". I sobbed quietly.

"That's horrible" he said quietly.

"I've never found someone I've loved so much, until I met you Deyes" I said softly as Alfie's eyes glimmered. "The question is am I the right girl for you? There's a million prettier girls than me, who have perfect family, perfect bodies, perfect childhood, perfect life. Why would you want to love someone who's it's the opposite of my perfect".

"There not my definition of perfect" Alfie said as I blinked up at him. "I'm not looking for perfect, I'm looking for a girl named Zoe Elizabeth Sugg. I'm always going to be here ready for you to open up".

"really".

"Really" Alfie repeated lightly kissing my check.

"I haven't had a perfect life, I'm not perfect. My parents had been whilst in here teens giving me to a foster home, there only five us left at the home. Most of the kids are younger than 11 expect me. I never met me parents since giving me up".

"Alfie" I whispered as we sat there hugging each other."I've try speaking to my father but he pushed me away".

"He doesn't see how wonderful you are" Alfie comforted me. "Few years ago my parents came back to the home when I was at school, they handed the carer a note for me saying about a long lost sister, which they gave to a foster home". Alfie shook his head as he have me a sad smile. " her names poppy, sadly I've never found her".

"We can try and look for it" I smiled but Alfie still looked sad.

"I don't need anyone" he fidgeted with his fingers. "Expect you".