per ☹ fect // zalfie

per ☹ fect

That's the problem with drinking,

I thought, as I poured myself a drink

.If something bad happens you drink in an attempt to forget;

if something good happens you drink in order to celebrate;

and if nothing happens you drink to make something happen.

Last night, defiantly a night I never want to recall again. I struggled to find my senses as I widen my eyes looking up at the unfamiliar ceiling. My head was pounding as the snoring noises grew louder and louder. I turned my head over my shoulder noticing Jack Harries face palmed into his pillow. Great. I frantically pulled one of Jacks shirts over my mismatched underwear, coving up my bare body. My hair was a mess and my makeup up was smeared across my face.

"Leaving so soon?" Jack said in a mocking tone. "You were quite good last night, even if you were drunk" he laughed as I swiped open my phone receiving all the miss calls from Louise and ... Alfie.

"look Jack" I said quietly. "I can't remember anything last night, so could we keep this a secret?" I asked.

"My lips are sealed" he nodded then winked as I sighed. "Our dirty little secret" he chuckled. Quickly enough, I escapes out of the room without hearing another remark from Jack. I felt disgusted and ashamed, how I let alcohol take over my body. Thinking it was cure the pain.

I could still picture Alfie kissing a girl in my mind.

"can't believe, she was warned about Jack" I could hear Louise mumbled to Tanya as I stood quietly on the other side of the door listening in.

"Such a slut" Tanya cussed. "where is she?".

"I don't know, probably still I'm bed with Jack" Louise guessed

"Stupid slag has to share a room with us" Tanya moaned. "I don't want here near Jim" Tanya protested as I heard Louise laugh. "Poor Alfie".

I assumed, I knew they were talking about me.

Louise and Tanya were meant to be my 'best friends'. Now they think I'm a slag, slut just because I got drunk. The pain in my head started pondering harder as I rested my back against the corridor walls.

I had to face them.

I slowly slide the spare key into the door, which was found under the mat. The muttering a whispering stopped as I stood in front of them, both gazing up at me.

"You have returned" Tanya titled her head frowning at me as I walked towards my wardrobe. "Nice time with Jack?". I ignored her question and picked out leggings and one of Joes hoddies which found its way into my suitcase and never back in his wardrobe.

"Zoe" Louise said quietly. "We was worried about you last night".

"I wasn't" Tanya spat out. "you haven't even been here 2 months and your already jumping into boys bed'.

"tanya" Louose gasped as Tanya frowned at her then making direct eye contact with me.

"whos next? Finn,Marcus,Casper,Alfie" she asked then laughed. "Jack only wants you for sex" she whispered stepping closer towards me as i wrapped Joes jumper around me.

"i didn't jump into Jacks bed" i said in a sarcatic tone. "he took care of me when i needed someone".

"when you needed someone?" Louise repeated sounding upset. "You could have came and got me or Joe". I shook my head, as Louise blinked her eyes tightly together.

"You was drunk, I can smell the alcohol from your breath" Tanya muttered.

"Everyone makes mistakes, we're not all perfect" I whimpered.

"No Zoe" Tanya said firmly, pointing her finger towards me. "We don't make mistakes by sleeping in boys beds, only sluts do that".

after knowing me only a short time , they had decided to label me as a slut.

Breaking the silence, I stood up from my bed and stamped towards the door "Going to see Jack, are we?" Tanya said in a girly mocking tone. Ignoring her questioned I slammed the door shut. Now what, where was I suppose to go? I rummaged through the hoddie pockets and found my phone typing a message to Joe

To Joe From Zoe

Where are you Joe? I need someone urgently x

It didn't take long for a response.

To Zoe From Joe

I'm at the cafeteria with Jack and Alfie, come along we'll talk there x

Joe was the only person on this earth that knew me, I needed to speak to him. As for sure rumours of Last night would spread quickly like wildfire. Alfie and Jack were in deep conversation across from me as I wondered into the cafeteria, every so often smirking like they knew a secret.There was an awkward silence as I slipped in the seat beside Joe as all boys eyes laid on me.

"Sweetheart" Jack stopped his and Alfie's conversation, flickering his eyes at me. "Alfie has found himself a girl" He chuckled as Alfie bit his lower lip.

"not really, we was both drunk" Alfie muttered tapping his coke can.

"being drunk can do stupid things to you" I said firmly frowning at Jack who snarled at me.

"Alfie's to a winner, big boobs big bum" Jack laughed Louise, disrespecting the girl.

"Joe, can I speak to you in private?" I asked.Joe nodded standing up, we didn't bother mentioning where we were going to the others. I opened an empty classroom and gestured for Joe to step inside before closing the door behind us, making sure nobody listen in.

"What's wrong Zo?" Joe sighed folding his arms around his body. " I heard about you and Jack".

"Who told you?" I shut my eyes, not wanting to look into Joes disappointed ones.

"Jack, of couse he's very smug about it and how you were drunk" he spat out. "You know what alcohol did to mum".

"I know, don't remind me".

"I don't to want to lose you as well" he rolled his eyes before placing his arm around my petite figure. "Your my sister and I love you".

"The thing with Jack was a stupid drunken mistake, I'm not a slut like everyone saying. I didn't mean for it to happen It just saw" I suddenly stopped.

"Saw what?" Joe asked.

"Nothing" I shrugged off.

"Nothing?" Joe repeated raising his left eyebrow.

"I was just persuade into drinking" I lied.

"I don't believe you" Joe shut his eyes removing his arm. "You know what alcohol did to our family, you had the choice to say no but you said yes".

"it was a mistake"

"Mum made a mistake one night drinking, that causes to be addicted" Joe whispered turning his back to me.

"I'm not addicted though" I pointed out.

"Mum thought she wasn't either, she thought it was a one night thing drinking. But then she got addicted and that what can happen to you Zoe"

"It won't Joe, promise" I raised my voice grabbing his hand.

"Promise dosent mean anything, mum broke her promise to us" Joe snapped.

"I won't break them, I'm not mum" I pleaded. "You need to understand, it was a stupid mistake and I'll never drink again".

"Your slowly turning into mum and I can't watch that happen to my sister"