per ☹ fect // zalfie

per ☹ fect

panicked,confused,annoyed.

"zo, are you alright? you keep looking round like your paincking are you having one of your attacks" Joe stood infront of me with a worried expression his face.

"im fine, its Alfie have you seen him?" i asked faking a smile to reassure my brother.

"not lately" he said unsurely. "I saw him having a convosation with Jack 10 minutes ago, it seemed very firery like they were arguing" I gasped looking over to the entrance door seeing Jack walk in holding his hands together and Marcus whispering his his ear.

"I need to find Alfie" I said quickly pushing my way past the drunken teenagers, glaring at Jack. "Where's Alfie?" I said firmly not showing my panic.

"Alfie who?" He joked pressing his hand against mine.

"Don't touch me" I hissed rushing out down the dark corridors frantically calling Alfie. "Alfie can you hear me?" I shouted out as I opened another classroom door. "Alfie" I whispered a a I heard a high pitch groan.

"Zoe" someone called out in pain.

"Alfie" I sobbed finding him collapsed on the cold floor, blood pouring from his face. Falling to my knees by Alfie's said as a smile crept on to his pale face, I rested my head against his chest as I listen to his panicked breathing.

"I'm sorry Zo, I try. Remember I will always love you"he trailed off tears forming in his eyes.

"sorry for what?" I questioned wiping sweat of his forehead. "Alfie what happened?" I rambled becoming more concerned about Alfie.

"I wasn't going to let him ruin our lives" Alfie stopped shutting his eyes.

"Alfie" I cried, nudging his body as his lips started to tremble. "No Alfie wake up" I said shakily squeezing his hand tight.

I needed help and fast.

My fingers shakily dialled 999 as the phone ring for a few seconds a calming voice answered asking me what was the problem.

"It's my boyfriend, he has passed out and has blood pouring from his head. Please help me" I cried as the women breathed out slowly.

"We will be there quickly, don't worry" she said before cutting me off.

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Why was it everyone that I love ended up here?

When Joe was 3 he ate a crayon and ended up in hospital.

Then there was my mum battling her cancer

And now the boy who had stolen my heart, Alfie

I was alone, leaning my head against my hands as I was seated in hospital outside Alfie's room still wearing my prom dress. "Excuse me, do you know where Alfie Deyes room is?" A blonde girl as standing by the reception desk asking a nurse, the nurse pointing my direction as I looked up making eye contact with this beautiful blonde. "Zoe Sugg?" The blonde girl walked towards me saying my name.

"Yeah that's me" I said shyly wiping away a tear stain.

"I've heard so much about you" she smiled. "I'm Alfie sister, Poppy" she told me laying her hand on my knee.

"Alfie finally found you?" I asked as she nodded her head. "He didn't tell me, he did" I bit my lower lip looking down.

"How is Alfie?" She wondered looking over her shoulder.

"Not good" I sniffed.

"What happened? Did he drink to much? Did he slip?" She bombarded me with questions.

" I don't know" I shrugged letting tears spilled. "We were dancing then he went to the toilet and then I found him collapsed on the floor" I said breathlessly.

"Calm down" she said calmly wrapping her arms around me. "He'll be fine" she said, though I doubted her words.

The room was filled with slient as i crowned down beside Alfie holding his fragial hand, Poppy oppsite me talking softly to him The doctors predicted for him to wake up any minute, after i told Poppy that Alfie hadent mention finding her she fell incredible shy and uneasy to talk to. I listen to the bleeping of the machine next me, as Poppy rambled on about missing the time they missed together. 

"Mr Deyes is making good progress, we're able to take him off the oxgyen now" The doctors said calmly wheeling the machine out as we listen to his breathing, steadly. 

"where am i?" a sleepy Alfie asked as he squeezed my hand. "Zoe" he breathed out opening his eyes moving his bushy eyebrows as he saw Poppy. "Poppy" he gasped making my body joult. 

"Alfie" i cried happily. "Never frigthen me again like that" i giggled softly nuzzling my head into his neck. 

"i promise i wont" Alfie reasured me. "Have you two met and introduce?" Alfie asked coughing. 

"Kinda" Poppy bit her lip. " Alfie you havent told her have you?" she asked as Alfie shock his head.

"Its alright now im not annoyed, if you wanted to get to know each other before introducing me" i said softly smiling at the siblings.

"Zoe theres more that Alfie has to tell you" She sighed out rolling her eyes. 

"Not now" Alfie said sharply " Zoe im sorry for ruining your prom, i wanted it to be perfect just us two" he diverted his eyes at Poppy she nodded and left the room. Alfie nudged over allowing me to lay beside his as we interwinded our fingers. 

"i dont care, it is still perfect because im with you" i said quitely pressing my lips agasint his forming stubble.  

"I just wanted to make everything right, even with Jack" Alfie sighed. "i guess he dosent like me very much". 

"he shouldnt get away with this, making you end up in hospital" i sobbed Alfie wrapped his spare arm around me. 

"Zoe you need to try and be friends with him , i wont always be here". 

"are you stupid? why do i want to be friends with Jack? us two were going to be together forever?" i asked unsure as my breaths became heavier. 

"Zoe" Alfie pressed his soft lips agasint mine as i notice tears spill from his eyes. " Poppy is moving to America and im moving with her" Alfie blurted out.

"your what?" i shouted out, making Alfie tense up. "Alfie you cant just move". 

"America will bring so many oppatunaties for me and to get to know my long lost sister" He whispered in my ear. "i know your hurt now, but in years to come when you found a perfect boyfriend and settle down with kids. youll have your own famous shop and be touring around the world, you will have forgetton about me. im not worth your tears, you need much better". 

" i dont want much better, i want you"