The Business Place | k.nj + k.sj

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≪Seokjin's P.O.V.≫
≪Do you understand?≫

I finished the work with my heart beating wildly. I gathered my things and stood, swinging my bag over my shoulder.

"Seokjin, come here please," Namjoon called to me.

I walked to stand in front of his desk, looking him in the eyes with a blank stare. He had an apologetic look in his eyes and motioned for me to sit down.

I took a seat and looked back at him.

"Listen, Seokjin, I didn't bring Hoseok in here to be nosy or to pry at your past. We asked him questions on what might be going on and why you are the way you are."

I squinted my eyes at him, "Why I am the way I am?" I repeated.

"Okay, that's not how I meant to word it. We just wanted to know if there was something wrong and what might've been the cause of it," he laid his hands on his desk.

"Not to be rude or anything, sir, but don't you think that that information might be too personal for a boss to know about his assistant. Bringing their friend in here and asking them questions isn't very appropriate now is it Namjoon ssi?" I tilted my head slightly. "Maybe medical information might've been necessary, buy many of the things on that list are private to me and you should not know."

"I understand, but-"

"No, if you wanted to know anything about me, you should've come to me and not to Hoseok. I don't know what all he told you, but based on what was written on that paper, he told you things that I only trusted him knowing and very deep and personal stuff that I want to try and forget," I seethed. "What did he tell you about me?"

It was nothing but silence between us.

"Did he tell you about the times I came to my parents trying to tell them what was going on at school, to only be pushed away and forced to go back? About the times I was made fun of for wearing concealer to hide bruises and called a girl? About what my brother's friends did to me? About how I almost died?" I snapped. "About my condition that makes it feel like I'm being strangled and how my chest feels like it's caving in if I even go for a jog?"

I felt my shields slowly breaking down and I tried frantically to build them back up with broken pieces. I shocked Namjoon into silence with the secrets that spilled through my lips.

"And if he told you that I don't like my picture being taken, then why do you take me out into the public where we're easily seen? People think we're dating because of it! People are saying nasty things about me and you because of all of this!" I shouted. "If I'm so 'nearly emotionless' then why do I care so much about this? Your image could get ruined because of all of this!"

My lungs felt like they were on fire, my heart wanted to beat out of my chest. I felt an intense pain and flinched when I inhaled deeply.

"Now my face is all over the media, which is the last thing I wanted," I breathed out, trying to calm my pulsating heart.

"I'm so sorry Seokjin," he ran a hand through his hair. "I didn't mean to offend you."

I nodded and sighed, taking deep breaths to calm down.

"Are you okay?" he asked full of worry.