Note to self: Stop expecting
Because expectations lead to disappointments
That's what I kept on telling myself
My life motto
I keep on singing it like a lullaby
But it never seems to stick to my head sometimes
Which results to my heart dropping
Even when it's already weak
I kept on holding on to you
I kept on calling you
You would leave me with promises
Promises you couldn't keep
False promises that left me crying myself to sleep at night
Those false promises that made me an insomniac
People told me not to keep my hopes sky high
They told me not to expect too much from you
But even after every false promise
I gave you a chance
A chance to prove them and myself wrong
You told me you would come
I had it all arranged in my head
I expected seeing you outside
Waiting for me
But as usual you weren't there
And every time, it would hit me so hard
Like it never happened
Like you've never done it before
I never listened to those people
Because I had faith in you
I expected too much from you
And everyday after crying
One thing would get a stuck in my mind
Note to self: Stop expecting
Those words became my best friend in my mind
Saying," I told you so"
I didn't stop expecting greater things from you
Until one day
After all the torture I had done to myself,
Expecting too much and having faith in you
I realised you were not my dad
You were just a father
A father who just donated 23 Chromosome
And that was it
I stopped expecting
It finally sunk in
Note to self: stop expecting
Because expectations lead to disappointments
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PuisiPoems written by me, myself and I. Wrote them with a mind full of words wanting to be let out and shared to the wonderful people of Wattpad. Just wanted to share my veeery wild thoughts and try to find myself through writing.
