Victoria's Secret

Chapter Twenty Seven

Hey Guys! I am still alive. Longer authors note at the end if you don't mind giving it a quick read as it'll explain where I have been

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I feel so drained. Emotionally. Physically. I never imagined feeling this way since my transition into a vampire. I thought it would be great. Amazing. I thought I would feel powerful constantly and I thought I would be able to live this immortal life without falling into the depths of sadness, but here I am. I wander around the house in a trance. I answer questions when I am asked them, but I do not join in the conversation. I feed enough to keep my hunger at bay, but I do not drink enough to be fully replenished. The constant ache in my heart from being away from her  is a constant reminder of how much I have messed up, and I have accepted it as a part of my day.

I have been ignoring the calls and messages from them, praying they don't come to get me. I have never felt this type of fear before, even though I know that Alice is watching their future as a precaution, but I know first hand her visions are not always accurate.

I will await the end of forever, and pray that in her absence I will find happiness in my sorrow.

Isabella

Confusion. That's all that runs through my mind. What happened? Where did the plan go wrong? Jasper was only gathering vampires like me... [A/N quick reminder that Isabella didn't know about Jasper's job] so what had made him so angry? What?  I had a suspicion that Victoria had something to do with this but I was so confused I couldn't get my thoughts together. I dial her number, and she answers straight away.

"Yes my dear?" her sweet voice clears my mind.

"Where's Jasper?" I ask. "What happened?"

"Isabella, you are asking the wrong question. I do not know where your toy  went and I do not know what happened," the hostility in her voice tells me a different story.

"You must know something. What did you do to him?" I ask sternly.

She sighs. "I already told you. I had nothing to do with this. He probably lied about his feelings to get in our heads and then leave. That's what traitors do Isa. I suspect he went running back to the Cullens with his tail in between his legs."

"He wouldn't have done that! I mean, I know he is with the Cullens but surely something else happened. He said he didn't want to be a puppet anymore. What did you make him do?"  

"Do you really want to know? I had him make an army. Like that old bitch did. I had him make an army of newborn vampires and he left. So I am going to go to the camp and I am going to take them all to Forks. I am going to take them to Forks, and murder them all in front of his eyes. I will show him what it is like to betray me. I will show him what it is like to betray us," her voice is cold, and a shudder falls through my body.

Jasper

"JASPER!" Alice screams my name and I am at her side in a second. "She is coming... Getting the army... Killing them all... Here..." Although her sentence is scattered, I know what she is meaning. Kira! Matthias!  I grab my phone and quickly dial her number.

"Jasper, where are you?" Kira's voice is cheery.

"Get out of there! Get the others and get out! Victoria is coming for you!"

"What are you talking abou-" the phone goes silent... I stop breathing as I wait for her to return.

"Kira?"

Instead of her voice, it is another voice that replies.

"So Jasper, the psychic saw my plan? Unfortunately she is too late. I am already with your beloved newborns. So I will make a compromise with you. I will be at the Cullens' residence by noon tomorrow. Either you can chose their pack and I will have your dearest Kira compel you to forget your memories of us and you'll be happy with them, but you will feel empty and have to watch the newborn army die, or you can join us again and obey every order I make and the newborns live. I'll see you then." She hangs up the phone.

I literally feel my stomach in my throat and I collapse on the ground. The Cullens come to my side, and attempt to support me. "I am royally screwed," I murmur, linking eyes with my adoptive parents. "What do I do?"

"Jasper, I honestly do not know," Carlisle kneels in front of me. "With us, you are happy and you are home, but you will be without your mate. With them, you will be unhappy but with Isabella. Each option is equally as bad as it is good, but it is ultimately you're own decision."

I frown. Usually Carlisle's advice is helpful, but today it isn't. Probably because he doesn't have any idea what I should do. Like me. Like everyone. I always end up in these situations, where the fate of many lie in my hands. I took the innocence away from these Newborn vampires and I stole their human lives, and know I could potentially force them to lose their vampire lives. Or I could stay with them, but I would be a slave and I would have to do everything I hate.

I partly have already made up my mind, but I still had time to think. Time to make my decision.

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Author Note.

So this chapter is a little longer than the usual because I've been away for so long. I hate not updating, and will try to get back into a routine. But life has been so hectic lately.

I have 35 more days at school [excluding holidays and weekends] before I am officially finished my year 12 experience. So I am beyond stressed and trying to keep up with all my work and everything.

And to make matters worse, my parents are on the verge of a divorce and they're constantly fighting and the whole works so that has added to the stress factor.

I wish I could write more often for you guys, but I am trying my hardest to keep my head above the water and stay positive. So please, don't be afraid to message me because I honestly would love to talk to you all.

Anyway, until the next upload where it is gonna go down.