You Are My Sunshine--Joshler

9

(A/N lmao I must've been high or something when I wrote that last chapter cause that went COMPLETELY wrong hahaha I'm so sorry lmao bye)

I awake in Josh's arms, tangled in the sheets. I blush at the though of what happened just a few hours ago. I sit up carefully, not waking Josh. I get off the bed and walk to my wardrobe, putting on a pair of clean boxers and sweatpants. I crawl back into bed, snuggling up to Josh again. He rolls over on his side, facing me. I smile and gently stroke his cheek. I look at Josh's features carefully. He doesn't look as tired. He looks pale, sick almost. He has scruff from not shaving. His once bright yellow hair started to fade out. I can't help but notice something odd though. Josh has this scar on his neck. It stops just before his jugular vein. I gently run my fingertips over it. Before I could finish tracing it, Josh grabs my wrist.

"What are you doing."

"I-I'm sorry I just noticed it and I-"

"Tyler. Promise me you won't ask about that. Promise me you won't ask about it ever. Not even when we're grey and old."

"I promise. But you know you can talk to me right?"

"Okay but I just don't want you to know about why that's there."

"Okay..."

I look at his mocha brown eyes (c major lips and tiger growl teeth (; ) in despair. I want to know why. I want to know when. He knows I love him right? I hope so. Josh lets go of my hand, sitting up and resting his head in his hands. I sit up as well, reaching for his arm. I graze his skin and he jumps back.

"Not now Tyler."

Josh turns away from me. I hang my head, getting up and going to the bathroom to take care of my personal hygiene. When I come back out, Josh had lied back down, his eyes open but grey. I lie down on the bed, facing him.

"Josh..?"

"Hmm..."

"I'm sorry..."

"You don't have to be. I'm fine."

"Don't lie to me."

"I'm not lying."

I gently stroke his cheek, his eyes shifting up towards me.

"I love you."

".... I love you too...."

I gently smile at Josh, still looking sad behind my eyes. I wrap my tight arm around Josh, pulling myself into him. I close my eyes.

"You are my sunshine my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are grey. You'll never know dear how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away..." (A/N I should've called this You Are My Sunshine damnit. Oh well)

"Tyler..."

"Yes Josh."

"Why do you sing that song?"

"Because when I do, I can tell it clams you down."

"What made you start?"

"When your hair was bright yellow and fluffy."

I run my hands through his hair, twisting it around a curl. I just want to hold him and tell him I love him. So I do. I roll over and pull Josh on top of me, letting him rest his head on my chest.

"I love you so much Josh."

"I love you too Tyler."

I play around with Josh's hair until he falls asleep peacefully.

"Goodnight Joshua..."

(A/N short whoops)