This Love 2

chapter 16

I'M EATING CHERRY SOURS YAY

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Cleo's P.O.V

It's been a week since the most embarrassing day of my entire life. The main question that I've been pondering over is if I got urine on him, of course it was by accident, but still. My throat is scratchy from me screaming last week and it keeps making me cough, so I drink warm tea for most of the day to help sooth my throat. I feel awkward around Niall and I think he senses that whenever he's around me. The idea of his to take me off of the pill I need everyday wasn't the smartest. They're to help my mind ease off the negative thoughts that I keep remembering.. my parents, my uncle, and my uncle's friends that are supposed to complete their task which is to get me and do whatever they want to me. I call them happy pills. I take one in the morning and one at night.

We went out to eat breakfast earlier with Piper and Harry, that was awkward too, but I faked it. I acted like I was perfectly fine. We're all sitting outside, all of them are playing around in the pool and I'm sitting on the side swishing my feet back and forth in the water, they finished they're lunch which was a sub sandwich from Subway and I'm still eating mine. I keep my sunglasses on to block everyone's eyes from meeting mine.

Piper is on Harry's shoulders playing around, waiting on me to join them, so we can play the game all together. I shake my head and hold up my sandwich, gesturing that I'm not finished.

I'm not taking my blue jean shorts off. My scars are something I want to be seen by anyone. Not even Niall, even though he's seen them already.

"I'm not really in the mood, I'm sorry. " I shrug and take a bite out of my sandwich.

"Cleo, come on!"

"Yeah, it'll be fun!"

"You love this game!"

Harry and Piper shout from the water while Niall walks swims over to me.

"Cleo," He stands up, only his toned torso and tattooed ribs showing above water; he takes my food from me and I reach for it, but he moves it. My hand that is reaching out for my sandwich is grabbed by his and he moves himself to stand between my legs.

"Is this about.." He gives me a look and I know he's meaning about last week. I don't want to discuss this anymore, so I'm going to lie. I will think of every damn excuse I can think of and use the most convincing one.

I shake my head, no, and take my sandwich back.

"You have been acting different ever since you know. Why?"

"I'm on my period." I bite my sandwich again. His face scrunches up and he raises an eyebrow.

"I thought you said that birth control makes that kind of shit not happen anymore."

"Well, I'm on it and I don't feel like doing anything." I snap.

"Maybe you are on it after all," He says.

"I don't feel good. I'm going to take a nap." And with that I got out of the pool and padded my wet feet across the floor to make my way upstairs. I'm not on it and I don't feel sick at all. It's just uncomfortable for me to sit out there and pretend everything is fine, it's getting tiring for me to do that.

I put the shirt I slept in last night, which was Niall's, over my bikini. I fold my denim shorts and lay them on the edge of the bed, sleeping with pants on is a weird feeling for me, I'm satisfied with a shirt and underwear.

I get underneath the comforter and click through the channels on the television. I put an elastic headband on because since I'm laying on my side, my hair will get in my face a little.