This Love 2

chapter 8

Songs for this Chapter:

Start of Time- Gabrielle Aplin

You & I - One Direction

The Way- Ariana Grande

Niall's P.O.V

"We're home, don't come in our room, we're getting ready!" I knock on their room door and Harry says okay.

"Why are you so quiet?" I smile, sitting next to Cleo on the bed while she eats her ice cream.

"I feel like you don't love me as much as you used to," She keeps her head down, stirring the small amount of ice cream left in the bowl.

"What? Where did that come from? You know I love you, Cleo. Why would you even think that?"

I do love her. I love her more than anything in this world and it makes me seem like I'm not contributing in our relationship. I didn't even know my girlfriend felt like this.

It feels like I have been shot all over again. Every single thing that we do together, we only do it because we love each other.

"Cleo, I love you more and more each day. I feel like I'm failing at being a good boyfriend to you. I just don't,-. What am I doing wrong, Cleo? I know I have to stop lashing out on you, but what am I doing wrong to make you feel like this?" I don't understand.

"Well, it doesn't feel like you love me more each day. Neither one of us show affection anymore, we rarely go anywhere, I know you don't like talking about "feelings", but that's what we need to do anyway."  She sits the bowl on the nightstand and plays with the ends of her hair, I sit on the bed and she continues to fiddle with her hair.

"I feel like we're both doing these things. It's not just me. Cleo, I swear I'm not trying to be rude, but a lot of outdoor activities involve water, which neither one of us are fond of and yes, we are affectionate." We can barely go anywhere because of the water situation in both of our lives. I really do try to make plans for both of us, but she's picky and is frightened by most things so there isn't much to do.

"No, we aren't, Niall!" We are very affectionate and she knows full well we are.

"Cleo! It hasn't even been a week since we last had sex!" I have no choice, but to give her the "are you fucking crazy" look. She is. She has to be.. to sit there and say that we aren't affectionate.

"No!" She shouts loud enough to where it's not to loud for Harry and Piper to head her, but it's loud to me since I'm right here.

"What do you mean "no"? Yes we are, Cleo! Don't lie and say we aren't." I lower my voice back down to normal and put my forehead in my palm with my head down. I'm not going to argue with her on this. It's dumb and she's wrong.

"No, we aren't, Niall! Every single time we have sex it's rushed! I like it, but it's not passionate nor romantic! I just wish we could do that like we did the first time we met! But no! All we do is j-"

I shut her fast and loud mouth up by smashing my lips against hers. I was sitting on the corner of the bed and she was in the center, so it wasn't that far to get to her.

"What are you doing?" She says between peck kisses. 

"I'm trying to be romantic, Cleo." I stop kissing her and move whenever she sits up.

"We have time before we leave," I look over at the alarm clock.

"Then, can we make it romantic in here?" Cleo asks, looking innocent, only driving me crazier, but I have to remember to not go like we usually do. I nod and we both get off of the bed, what the hell am I doing? How do I make it "romantic" in here? I watch her close the blinds because there is too much sunlight in here.