This Love 2

chapter 54

Cleo's P.O.V -

I pushed him off of me, not even having time to wipe my wet cheeks off, then grab my pillow and hit him with it.

"You liar!" I grunt and hit him with my pillow again three more times.

"I didn't want to hurt your feelings, Cleo! Where are you going?" I put on my pajama pants and walk towards the door at the same time as him.

"You always go sleep in the guest room just because you're mad!"

"Because I don't want to sleep with you! What if I'm 'a bad cuddle buddy'?" I mock him.

"Alex! Stop! You know that isn't what I meant. You're overreacting and you know you're going to freeze to death tonight."  I know it's winter and the heater is broken, but I have to prove a point to let him know that he actually did hurt my feelings.

I feel like hitting him.

"No, I won't." I'm surprised whenever he opens the door for me to leave the bedroom. For some reason, I was about to cry again, but it came out sounding as if I were a whining puppy.

Going downstairs made me want to run straight back upstairs. I hate the dark in the guest room, we never replaced the light bulb a few weeks ago.

The closet that the blankets are usually in is empty. Harry and Piper have most of them because they have more windows, so it's colder in there. We have a few blankets and comforters in our room, but as for now I have a sheet and a pillow.

Sometimes I wish he was the one that came down here to sleep instead of me. I hate this room.

The wind whistles every now and it's bothering me because I'm trying to sleep. I face away from the door to sleep, but scream to the top of my lungs from having bad dreams hours later. I try to get out of the bed, but I'm tangled up in the sheet and grunt from trying to get it off.

"Cleo, what are you doing down here?" Piper comes in tripping over my house slipper.

"Let me guess..you and Niall got into an argument." She says and helps me out of this damn thing.

We end up making hot cocoa and chatting in the kitchen about what happened. I don't give her all of the details, but just what actually kind of mattered.

"Well, keep trying!" She laughs and I surprisingly do as well.

"Yeah, but I don't want to knowing I've been doing a shitty job, you know? It's just embarrassing to know your boyfriend has been faking orgasms and everything. We've been dating for almost two years and everything that we do sexually I forget how to do it! I don't know why! I just do! And I try to remember stuff, but I guess I've been doing it wrong." I shrug and take a sip of my drink.

"Pause halfway through sex and if he isn't making that face that guys make during sex, then maybe he isn't into it." I tuck my hair behind my ear and try not to make my eyes water by looking down in my lap, faking a smile.

"I thought about talking to him about it, but it's- it's, I don't know." I shrug and put my palms up to my eyes. Piper walks over to me, hugging me which made me want to fully just let out my emotions, but I didn't.

This isn't not her problem, it's mine.

"If you don't say anything to him, he'll never know." I nod my head and wipe my eyes before she steps back.

"It's hard to talk t-to him," I wipe my eyes again. "He doesn't understand sometimes." I sigh and sip my hot chocolate.

"I'm just going to go back to sleep. I don't want to wake up with puffy eyes." I chuckle and wipe my eyes again before I put my glasses back on.