Lose Yourself ｜ Sasunaru

Chapter 12

⚠️WARNING: SOME CONTENT MY TRIGGER PEOPLE⚠️(＜－ will be used before and after triggering scene)

Drown - Bring Me The Horizon

Suicide.

The idea seemed both completely wrong but somehow right at the same time. Naruto knew it wasn't the way to go about problems but he couldn't see things going up for him. He had no parents, his friends could do without him, he had no chance with Sasuke, he was raped by Sai, he was being stalked by Sai and he really saw no way out of it. So he decided, tomorrow would be his last day on earth.

"Hey Naruto, why are you in such a good mood?" Kiba asked, confused as to why Naruto was in such a good mood.

"I just realized how luck I am to have you guys as my friends," Naruto smiled, grinning softly. He noticed Shikamaru eyeing him suspiciously.

"Awww, I feel special," Kiba wiped away a fake tear, holding his hand to his heart in honor.

Naruto laughed softly, Sasuke rolling his eyes at Kiba. Gaara ignored him and Shikamaru continued to watch Naruto.

Throughout the day, Naruto acted all chirpy until he went home saying that he didn't feel well. It was now lunch, without the blond and without Hinata. She was sitting with Sakura and Ino. Sasuke was reading his letter from his admirer Silently to himself until his eyes widened in horror.

"What is it, Sasuke?" Gaara asked, raising a non-existent brow.

"I got another letter," Sasuke barely managed to say in his state of shock and horror.

"Well what does it say?" Kiba asked excitedly.

Sasuke swallowed a lump in his throat, momentarily forgetting that Shikamaru knew who the admirer was. "To sum it up, he was basically say goodbye and that he was going to kill himself..." he muttered.

Shikamaru nearly fell out of his seat in the process of trying to get up from the table. They all were shocked and in horror. "Shit! We might've too late!" The lazy boy growled.

The group began running, following behind Shikamaru as he ran out the school doors. "What's wrong Shika? Who's the admirer?" Kiba asked in confusion.

"The admirer is none other than Naruto," Shikamaru answered. "He went home not long ago remember? He had it all planned out! The way he was acting this morning hinted it! Why didn't I see this coming?" he mentally beat himself up for not being there for Naruto.

"You mean the person writing those letters was Naruto?" Sasuke asked in surprise.

"Yes Sasuke, the idiot has been in love with you since elementary school," Shikamaru answered.

"What if he's not at the house?" Gaara asked in worry.

"You're right. Neji and Gaara, you guys check Konoha cliff. Sasuke, you check the house. Kiba, you check Ichiruku's to see if he went to have last minute ramen. I'll check the pond at the park and call Tsunade," Shikamaru needed to make sure they didn't miss a spot. He didn't know if he was going to drown himself, jump off the cliff, hang himself, cut himself. He was really clueless this time. They all did as told, knowing Shikamaru was better at planning than they were.

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Did he really want to do this? Yes

The blond took a deep breath, staring down at the razor in his hand. He placed the blade at the top of his wrist, where his wrist began. He took a few calming breaths before dragging the razor down his wrist vertically along his vein, watching the blood floor rapidly down his arm. He momentarily panicked but then realized there was no going back. He glanced at the bathtub full of warm water before cutting at his other arm, much like he had done to the other.