My Every Breath{Criss Angel Fanfic.}

~Three~

It was now my turn to drive again, and we were in Colorado one place where Belinda and I used to go on vacation and go skiing. I hated being there and drove as fast as I could just to get out of that state, before all the memories came flooding in...when I thought I was in love, and she was the right one for me...just thinking about it made me want to puke. She used me, then threw me away like I was shit. I was tired of being played a fool by every female that wanted to be apart of my life. But could I really stay away from something so strong and important in life, which was finding love and making a family for myself. Or was I forever going to be a terminal bachelor and live all of my days just working and watching the Sarantakos line end with me.

I knew I couldn't get out of Colorado before nightfall, so I knew I had to find a place to pull in for the night. Not that my mom was complaining but I knew she was getting cramped up in the RV, so I pulled up to the very nice hotel, I've been there once...and knew it had great rooms, and a very reasonable price. So I treated everyone to the rooms, while I stayed in the RV with Hammie and Stutter because I didn't want to be in there, for it was the same place where I took Saundra when I asked her to be my girl. Which was another huge mistake on my part...why couldn't I find a decent girl that would love me for me, and not for my fame, fortune, money and glory...then after they took me for all they could they ditched my ass, and a few of them even tried to sue me for more. I just had to face it, celebrities just didn't have the quality to find true love and emotional happiness.

I told them all goodnight as they went into the hotel rooms, I laid down on the bed and listened to a little bit of Korn and Godsmack for a while as I had both of the cats laying across my chest then slowly drifted off to sleep. But it wasn't a peaceful sleep by no means one after another I kept having wild dreams that quickly turned into nightmares, but I knew what it was about. It was my mind not turning off the fact that I was lonely and wanted to find someone to really share my life with and to give me a family. But every time I would think I was getting close to it, it would come back around and bite me in the ass with utter failure and disappointment. 

When I realized it wasn't going to shut off and let me sleep, I got up and went into the other room and sat down on the couch with a blanket and turned on the RV's TV and hit the play button, I should have known it would be Godzilla in it, that was Stoney for ya, but I watched it anyway, until I was so tired I couldn't keep my eyes open anymore. I didn't know it was almost four in the morning when I finally passed out on the couch with both cats sleeping in my lap. Somewhere around six or seven that morning I decided to go back in the bedroom and stretch out and go back to sleep, but I was interrupted by the family jumping in the RV wanting to go somewhere to get some food.

I grumbled a little bit and told them to go ahead, but I was going back to sleep, then as I tossed the keys to JD I told him he could continue the journey to Kansas after they ate. Maybe by then I would have enough energy and wants to get up for the day. Mom came in and sat down on the bed and asked me if I was alright, that I looked very pale this morning. I gave her a very tiresome smile and told her that I didn't sleep at all last night and was just very tired, she kissed me on the forehead then shut the bedroom door and blocked the windows so it would be nice and dark in my room and told me to get some sleep and she would make sure none of my pesky brothers would bother me. I smiled up at her and told her thanks, then I hit the pillow and went straight to sleep.

Before they pulled out Stoney was cleaning out the litter-box that we kept in the bathroom for Hammie and Stutter...then he told JD it was all clear to pull out to the nearest food site. Costa sat in the passenger seat looking out for the nearest food signs, mom was sitting in the recliner reading on her book, and Stoney was laying on the couch watching another Godzilla movie he put in.

I must have really passed out because it wasn't until everyone was loaded back in the RV that I was awakened after Costa turned the ignition on and headed back out on the open road. I slowly emerged from the bedroom and asked where we were at now. Stoney handed me a baggie and said he brought me some breakfast. I thanked him as I sat down next to mom. I looked up at him and asked him if he managed to get any coffee. He looked at me as he was trying to hide his cup...but then he gave in and said I could have it, because by the looks of me I needed it more than he did.

I accepted it gladly because I felt like shit, and really needed the boost. I drank it down in about four swallows, and twenty minutes later I was feeling better and pissing every five minutes. I finished the food then went up to the front and asked them if we crossed the state line yet. JD looked up from the map and said we will be crossing it in another hour or so give or take a few minutes due to Costa's very slow driving. Costa snorted at his brother and said was driving the speed limit dammit and to leave him alone. I patted Costa on the shoulder and told him not to take any lip off our oldest brother and to drive however he wanted too, because we weren't on a time clock...and I was going back to bed.