My Every Breath{Criss Angel Fanfic.}

~Twenty~

After my head was cleared I knew I had to go back to Vegas and give my son to her, because she had it already legalized, and if I didn't they would take my holidays with him from me as well...and even though it wasn't enough time with him, it was better than no time at all, which would be what I would get if I didn't take him to her. I slowly walked back to the house and told my family that we had to go back to Vegas because Shaunyl was waiting for me to drop Johnny off to her so she could go back to Australia.

Klayton told me to make her bring her ass here and come get him, instead of ruining my vacation...but I knew that wasn't going to happen because she would get lost in a heartbeat. Rachel went over and sat in Klayton's lap and out of the blue asked if she could come with us...because she didn't really have anything on the farm she couldn't live without...but she didn't want to be without her Klayboy bunny. I was in too much irritation and pain to smile or laugh, but I told her she was more than welcome to tag along for the ride. I didn't bother in wonderment if JD was going to ask Kim or not because since last weekend they have been living in my RV. I went to the bedroom and packed then just sat down on the edge of the bed trying to figure out anything...but my heart was a mess...and it kept me from thinking rationally.

Costa packed his bag, then went to mom's room and helped her pack Johnny's little travel bag. After he finished with them he carried all three bags down to the porch. Johnny came past my door holding Hammie, and I asked him to come over...he scampered up to me and crawled in my lap still holding onto Hammie. I gave him a tight squeeze and just held him close to me for a long time and asked him if he knew how much his daddy loved him. He turned around in my lap and reached up and gave me a kiss, and said yeah. I pulled him closer to my heart and kissed him all over, and told him that no matter how far apart I was from him, no matter how long in between visits I had to wait...I needed him to know and remember that I loved him so much. I tried to push myself out of feeling sorry for myself and sat him back down so he could go play until it was time to leave.

After Johnny went downstairs with Hammie, I zipped my bag up and just crashed down on the pillow and laid there staring blankly at the ceiling not being able to fathom the thought of Shaunyl actually doing this to me. Costa came in and grabbed my bag and took it downstairs as Houdini was chasing his feet trying to get to his shoestrings. I was so deep inside my own head I didn't notice Kc come in. She sat down on the bed beside me, then slid under my arm...as she said she wished there was something she could do to help me. Because she felt so bad for me. I rolled over and wrapped my arms around her and kissed her on the forehead, and quietly thanked her, but I didn't know of anything that anyone could do. As I laid there with Kc beside me, my emotions all flooded out, and I told her I needed her to be there for me...because I knew I would do something regrettable if she wasn't there to keep me emotionally in balance.

Kc looked at me and asked me if I was sure I wanted her to come. I gave her a long lasting kiss and told her I wouldn't be able to go thru with it if she didn't come...because part of me wanted to take Johnny and go off the grid and run away with him no matter how wrong it was. Kc held me tightly and said that she would go, and do everything she could to help. She instantly jumped up and said she needed to get her things packed if she was going too!! Which gave me an instant of laughter because I was still hanging onto her when she flew off the bed dragging me with her...but I think she did that just to get my spirits lifted a little bit...and it did. After she got her things gathered she hollered into Tommy's room because he was still in the room because his door was still shut, and asked him if he could hold down the fort with the horses and all. Tommy came out in his underwear and said he's done it many times, and that it wouldn't be too hard after Matt Wilder got there to pick up his six horses that she had been training for him...then there would only be the three horses and the little pony to take care of.

Kc gave him a kiss and said she would try to make it back to take over again as soon as everything turned out ok for me, and she knew I was going to be ok. Tommy drug her into his room and shut the door and told her very boldly that I wasn't going to be ok...unless she was with me, then told her not to be in a hurry, that he had everything under control here, and did just fine on his own...then he opened the bathroom door and said he wasn't truly alone anyway as Abby poked her head out of the shower and gave a silly wave to both of them. Tommy walked Kc back to the door and told her that it was her time to make herself happy instead of making everyone else happy...then pointed to me as my back was turned, and said that was where her happiness was. Then he slapped her on the ass and told her to get her ass over there with him and make me her own...then he told her to stop pussy-footing around, and being afraid of loving a man...and just do it because it was as easy as breathing. Kc looked at him and gave him an insecure smile. Tommy smiled back and told her that love was like oxygen too much of it will make ya as high as a kite, and not enough of it, you'll wither away and die.