Everything has calmed down, Harry and I were both sat on the couch watching Family Guy while Louis was upstairs willing Lux to go back to sleep so he could come down and Gemma was in Lotties room probably using her laptop.
It’s weird to think that Louis has a boyfriend, not entirely because he had a boyfriend persay but mostly because Lou and I have never been in relationships before. He was the first to be stepping ground in that department. There’s no jealousy though, I’ve never really been interested in a relationship so there is nothing stopping me from being happy for Louis and Harry.
Now that it is just Harry and I it is the perfect time to tell Harry about what happened on the dark roads earlier this night. Taking a deep breathe, I explain all of the events, from the walk back and the ominous quiet that surrounded me to the man who trapped me to the ground with his body. I tell him about the way he smirked at me with his eyes shining with desire and something else I couldn’t recognize.
“Well thats really,” Harry pauses to collect his thoughts, “thats really odd.”
“Thats not even the worst part.”
“How could it get any worse? Did he hurt you, did he touch you?”
“No, he didn’t do anything but what I said. It just, I don’t know how to explain it. When he smiled at me, my body, it just shut down for a second. All of a sudden I felt light headed and I couldn’t breathe. And then later, when I was walking here alone I was worrying that he was going to come back and, you know, take advantage of me. And instead of my body shaking with fear, it shook with another emotion, one that I have never felt before. There was a warm feeling, pooling in my stomach and it felt, good, but really bad at the same time. I felt like I needed something but I couldn’t figure out what I needed. I’ve never felt that before…”
“I,” Harry stopped to gather his thoughts once again, “ I don’t know how to tell you this…”
“Well just say it…”
“I think, I think you had your first time getting , you know, ‘aroused’”
“But, does, does that mean I’m gay?”
“I don’t know, it could.”
“Well how can I know?”
“You would have to test around I guess. Kiss a girl, kiss a boy, see what you like and what you don’t like. Thats really the only way to make sure if you’re, confused.”
“Where am I supposed to find someone to kiss? I’m 15 years old and I still haven’t kissed anyone besides my mom.”
“Well, you could easily find a girl who would want to kiss you with those cheekbones”
“I can’t just go up to someone and say can I kiss you so I can see if I’m gay, and I can’t pretend to like someone and then kiss them and find out that I don’t even like their gender.” The words flew out of my mouth fast and panicked, I felt like I was having a crisis.
“Hold on,” and with that Harry was dashing upstairs leaving me in the living room alone with my thoughts. I glued my eyes to the television, in hopes that it would distract me enough until Harry came back which wasn’t for another ten minutes. He had Gemma and Louis trailing close behind, Louis looked nervous but Gemma looked calm and empathetic.
“Okay so I told Gemma and Lou about what’s going on, I’m sorry but I think that this is the best way for you to be sure.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Well since you need to kiss a girl and a guy I figured you could kiss me and Gems. It would be for clearly scientific purposes and Lou said he’s okay with it. It’s the only way for you to try this without having to worry about the other person.”
“I don’t know, doesn’t it seem… Just weird?”
“No, it’s okay. Just relax and I’ll do all the work. Once you realise if you like it or not pull back and then you can try Harry.” Gemma’s voice was soft and calming, she sat down next to me on the couch.
Everything went quiet as she placed her hand on my thigh, leaning into the kiss. Her eyes slowly closed and her lips puckered softly, my eyes drifted shut and I let my lips mimicked hers. Her lips pressed mine softly and then a little more. She started to lean more into the kiss and I let my lips mimic hers once again. We were lightly snogging when I felt her tongue touch my lips asking for entrance. Thats when I knew, and I let my lips pull away. Gemma’s cheeks were painted red and she kept her head down as she stood up and left the room.
“I guess it’s my turn.” Harry says as he sits in the spot once occupied by his sister, I take one last look at Louis to make sure he is okay with this and he nods his approval.
Harry moves a lot like his sister, but instead of my thigh, he lets his hand rest on my hip. His eyes close and his lips pucker just like with the last kiss. When our lips touch it feels a lot different from when I kissed Gem. Gemmas lips were soft and fluffy, Harry’s are chapped and firm. He’s not as smooth and soft as Gemma was, every one of his moves is deliberate and is backed with confidence as if he knows exactly how each little twitch of his lips will affect me. And I think he just might because just then he places my bottom lip between his teeth and nibbles lightly. My eyes bulge out and I move quickly away from the kiss when a moan sneaks its way past my lips.
“Well do you have your answer now?” Harry's voice is soft and concerned.
“I, I’m gay” The whole world starts spinning and I should really sit down. But wait I’m already sitting. My body starts moving on its own and I’m lying flat on my back, arm dangling off the side of the couch.
The taller man’s eyes are the last thing I remember seeing before everything turns black.
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Hayran KurguSummary: Zayn isn't normal, he has known that for a long time though he never understood why. I guess it was that while the other kids were playing sports he was reading comic books, and when the other kids started going to parties he started studyi...
