Reliving life

Chapter 14

She stood up from the rock and paced in front of me, moving from left to right continuously without making a sound. I watched her for several minutes before I started to get dizzy.

"Ali..."

"Em I'm sorry, I'm just trying to figure out what to say" she stopped pacing whilst she spoke but as soon as she fell quiet again she returned to pacing.

I stood up from the rock and walked towards her slowly. I put my arms around her waist from behind to stop her movements and after moving her hair out of the way I placed soft kisses down her neck. I could feel her physically relax in my arms and that calmed my nerves as well.

"Em... I think I'm falling for you and I don't know what to do about it" she gripped my arms that were wrapped around her waist tightly.

"I was scared when I first realised and I pushed you away. For that I am so sorry and I understand if you hate me for it" she tried to continue but I cut her off by spinning her around and placing my lips on hers.

"Ali, I'm falling for you too and that scares me. You're my weakness but I want to make this work" I said after breaking away from the kiss.

She smiled shyly at me before nodding. We couldn't possibly be any closer to each other at that moment. I walked her backwards until she was pressed against a tree but before I kissed her again I had to ask her to clarify.

"So Ali does that mean you'll be my girlfriend?"

She seemed to contemplate the question with a serious look on her face which started to worry me and I'm sure that worry appeared on my face because she quickly smiled widely.

"Yes Em. But I'm new to all this and I'll try my hardest but I may still make mistakes. I want to be open about you but I'm scared"

"You don't need to be scared Ali. You've got me" I said with a smile and a twinkle in my eye.

I forced my hands into her hair and pulled her into a rough and passionate kiss. Yet again she pushed me away but she did it with a smile on her face. Pulling a can of red spray paint from her bag she wrote our initials inside of a heart on the side of the rock. A.D + E.F.

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One shot.
Two shot.

I woke up screaming.

Ali was holding me in her arms whilst stroking my hair softly. I felt instantly relaxed as I could finally make out what she was whispering in my ear.

"It's ok Em, I'm here and you're safe" she repeated over and over.

That was the first time since the incident that I hadn't been stuck reliving the entire nightmare. I'd managed to wake up halfway through. Was Ali already having an effect on me? She'd stayed the night after my mum had left to go stay on base with my dad in Texas.

I got up from my bed and showered quickly, washing all the sweat off of me that had accumulated due to the nightmare. I quickly checked my phone for Hanna's text.

Hanna: Is Alison good in bed? ;)

I instantly regretted letting Hanna know that Ali was staying the night. I hadn't gone into details about our status as I wanted to tell the girls face to face.

Emily: Han we haven't done anything like that yet!! But I woke up halfway through the nightmare. I think she managed to bring me out of it.

Hanna: Omg. She needs to stay with you every night if that's the case!!

Emily: Sounds like a good idea to me :) Night Hanna Banana x

Hanna: Night Emmy and Alison x

I towel dried my hair before getting back into bed with Ali, resting my head on her chest I began to quickly fall back to sleep. I felt so safe in her arms.

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"So spill the beans!" Hanna demanded as we sat next to Spencer and Aria for lunch.

I took a deep breathe before facing them all. This could go one of two ways. Either they would accept my new relationship with Alison or they would try and stop it before it had really started as their way to protect me.

"I'm dating Alison." I stated matter of factly. I was trying to convey that I wasn't going to take any negative feedback if they had any.

"Is that wise?" Spencer asked.

Out of all of my friends I knew she'd be the one more likely to voice her opinions. It wasn't necessarily a bad thing as she was doing it out of concern for me.

"She's been open about how she feels. She was trying to run from her feelings and that's why she was so horrible to me to start with. She was confused and didn't know how to deal with how she was feeling properly. Coming out is harder for some people than others" I replied.

Spencer nodded as she took in everything that I said whilst Hanna and Aria smiled widely at me.

"Spencer hid from her feelings by over studying" Aria giggled. "She hid her head in a book rather than face me but look at us now"

Spencer smiled at her comment and brought Aria into a tight hug whilst placing a kiss on her head.

"Team Sparia and Emison forever" Hanna shouted with her fist in the air.

I groaned loudly as I spotted Alison turning her head in our direction. She was sat at a table with Jenna and Noel and she had told me she was going to tell them but I couldn't be sure if she had done it already. She smiled and waved at me and I waved at her before turning my attention back to the others.

"Hanna I don't know if she's come out to her friends yet so can you keep it down" I pleaded with her.

"Fine. But as soon as they know I'm shouting it from the rooftops." She replied with a pout.

We spent the rest of our lunch laughing and joking with one another whilst every so often I stole glances at Alison. She looked so beautiful and I couldn't wait for school and swim practice to be over for the day so I could spend my evening with her.