Reliving life

Chapter 12

One shot.
Two shot.
Three shot.
Four.

Pain. Searing pain.

My eyes shot open as I gripped my stomach holding onto the scars as if they had reopened. My mouth was dry from screaming. My body was wet from sweating.

Suddenly there was a knock at my window, I jumped before turning around to see who was there. Alison motioned for me to open the window and after getting off my bed I obliged.

"Sorry, I just missed you" she said with a shy smile.

"You haven't spoken to me in three weeks Alison." I stated whilst looking her directly in the eye.

I was getting fed up of this game she was playing with me. One minute she was all over me and the next she treated me as if I had the plague. She hadn't even given me her number so that she could be the one in control of when we saw each other.

"I need a shower, nows not really a good time to talk" I said as I grabbed my towel and headed into my bathroom without giving her a second look.

When I walked back into my bedroom 20 minutes later after showering and then drying my hair I was surprised to see Alison sat on my bed.

"Did you not understand me when I said this wasn't a good time?" I asked her as I glanced down at my phone.

Hanna: It's been over a year. I'm running out of jokes.

Hanna: Emmmmmm

Hanna: What's more important than me? I know you're awake.

I glanced at Alison as I read through Hanna's messages.

Hanna: And now you've read my messages but I don't see those three little dots to say you're replying

I started to reply but got distracted as Alison moved off my bed and closer to me.

Hanna: Ohhh ok the dots are there

Hanna: And now they're not.

Hanna: Don't tease me bitch.

I forgot to breath for a second as Alison put her hands on my waist but I suddenly snapped back to reality and pushed her off of me.

"Alison you need to leave. Until you can tell me exactly what is going on with us then you need to stay away from me" I demanded before pointing to my window.

She looked me in the eyes with a bit of hope that I would cave in and change my mind but I was determined to stay strong. I deserved to be treated better.

After she had left I got back into bed ready to try and fall back asleep for a few hours before school. But before I tried I replied to Hanna.

Emily: Sorry, Alison turned up. I told her to leave me alone until she could tell me exactly what we are.

Emily: Han?

I sighed, she had obviously fallen back to sleep and I knew she would be mad at me when she woke up in the morning. She had set her alarm for the same time every morning for the past year and a bit just so that I always had someone to distract me after one of my nightmares. I was so lucky to have her in my life.

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"Hanna come on, I've said sorry a thousand times" I whined whilst she continued to ignore me.

Hanna hadn't spoken to me all day so far and it was now lunch time. Spencer and Aria were "studying" in the library and that had left the lunch table that me and Hanna were sharing in an awkward silence.

"If you talk to me I'll give you my pack of cookies" I said hopefully.

She glanced up at me and then eyed up the pack of cookies before reaching over and taking them.

"You're lucky these are double chocolate chip" she said with a mouth full of cookie.

I laughed as half of the cookie fell out of her mouth. I knew she wouldn't be able to stay mad at me all day.

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Walking towards the pool after school for swim practice I found myself thinking about Alison. Had I done the right thing? Yes, she had treated me awfully. I wasn't just going to be her puppet that did anything that she asked without question. I was lost in my daze when I came into contact with someone, hitting their shoulder as I walked past.

"Look where you're going Fields" Jenna snarled at me.

I looked around for Alison and saw no sign of her before my gaze landed on Jenna.

"S..sorry" I stuttered before turning back in the direction I had been heading.

"You will be" Jenna said as she grabbed me by the shoulder and shoved me against one of the lockers.

She held her fist in front of my face and I trembled at the sight. I kept my eyes on the floor hoping that she'd get bored and walk away.

"Jenna, that's enough"

I looked up and found Alison with her hand on Jenna's shoulder. Jenna gave her attention to Alison and was met with a glare. It looked as if Jenna was going to argue but in the end she shrugged and walked off down the hallway.

"Do you mind if I watch?" Alison asked me.

I looked at her with utter confusion on my face.

"Your swim practice" she said as she realised I had no idea what she had meant.

"It's a free country" I replied coldly before turning around and walking towards the pool.

Why was she interested in watching me swim. She hadn't ever asked about it before, never bothered to ask how any of the meets had gone. I doubted she even knew what stroke I did or that I was anchor in the relay.

As I entered the pool area after getting changed I was surprised to see Alison sat on one of the benches near the front. She smiled and waved at me but I turned away and made my way to the coach and the rest of the team. I had expected Alison to change her mind and not watch me but she stayed for the entire practice. She cheered when I won a practice race against Paige and she didn't seem bothered when the rest of the team eyed her up suspiciously. Was this her trying to prove to me how she felt?