Butterfly Kisses||Phan Oneshots

20: Carly || Part one

Title: Carly
Genre:Angst, Breakup

Summary:Dan was depressed and he knew it. Well not depressed, he hadn't seen a doctor who could confirm it for him, but he was very sad. Sad enough that every time Phil left for a meeting he would sit staring at that one photo he had saved on his phone of them back in 2009.
Author: AmazingNicola on Ao3

Warnings:Past Breakup, Breakup, Depression
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Dan was depressed and he knew it. Well not depressed, he hadn't seen a doctor who could confirm it for him, but he was very sad. Sad enough that every time Phil left for a meeting he would sit staring at that one photo he had saved on his phone of them back in 2009. Before Phil decided they needed a break. Before Dan stopped eating. Before Phil met her. Dan hated her, well he didn't. He couldn't hate her, she was perfect for Phil. She was basically a female version of Dan, this was the only piece of hope Dan had, she was so similar to Dan that Dan still thinks that maybe Phil isn't over him and this is the next best thing. He doubts it though, in fact he's pretty certain Phil never loved him, those words he used to say to Dan meant nothing to him. If he thinks hard enough he can imagine Phil's forced look when he said them. He never meant them, Dan was sure. Sure enough that he spend all his time looking on online dating websites for a new partner. He's not found a replacement to Phil yet. He's too skinny, she's too curvy, she's too mature, he's just not right. If only Phil hadn't arrived in his life on ruined everything. Yes Dan wouldn't be famous, he wouldn't have the radio show, or the adoring fanbase, but he would be able to judge potential partners without comparing them to that black haired man he was forced to live with. The one who hadn't noticed that Dan was sad, hadn't noticed the bags under his eyes, hadn't really noticed anything recently. All he had noticed was Carly. Carly this Carly that. That was all Phil ever mentioned these days, how the exact shade of Carly's hair reminded him of something beautiful (Dan likes to think that beautiful thing is him), how much he loves her and when he's next seeing Carly. Dan is starting to go insane, if only it was Phil bragging to someone about him. That would be nice.

Phil is sat opposite him at the moment, he's smiling giddily at his phone.

"Hey Dan, Carly wants to know if she can come over later, do you mind?" Phil said, smiling to himself.

"Sure Phil, do you need me to go out so you can have some alone time?" Dan said, feeling sick at the thought.

"No it's fine, she wants to see you again, it's been forever since you two saw each other." Phil replied happily.

"Oh OK then." Dan said bitterly. He doesn't really know why he was bitter, he just was.

"I'll tell her to come over in an hour or so." Phil said, walking off to call her and tell her. Dan just stared after him, wishing Carly wouldn't come over, but he couldn't say no to Phil, it's not like anything would happen if she wasn't here, he would just text her continuously .

"She'll be here at 4, I need to go find that radio work, one minute." Phil walks out without waiting for a reply. Dan tried not to cry, but it was hard. Two tears fell down his face. It was hard doing this.

"Hey Dan, I want to tell you something, when Carly is here I am going to propose to her. Would you mind filming it for me?"Dan hadn't noticed Phil walk back in the room. Dan burst into tears, just the thought of Phil marrying someone who wasn't him hurt him more than he liked to admit.

"Dan why are you crying?"

It was now or never for Dan. "Phil I need to tell you this, ever since you broke up with me in 2011 I have wanted you back. You're so oblivious, I have loved you since the beginning and I haven't stopped. The idea of you marrying someone who isn't me hurts me. Please don't marry her. I know you don't want me but the idea of you with her pains me more than anything." Dan looked down, he didn't want to meet Phil's gaze.

"Dan, maybe this should be the part where I break it off with Carly, maybe this is the part where I admit my undying love for you. Sadly it's not. Dan I'm sorry, I just don't like you that way and you feeling that way isn't going to stop me marrying the girl I want! Dan I love her and I never want to let her go. Maybe if you had told me this back in 2011 then we could have worked but I love someone Dan, I'm sorry. Phil said, trying not to cry at the sight of the sad man in front of him.

"It's OK Phil, I didn't expect anything else."

Dan walked out the room and into his bedroom. He looked at that photo, that sacred photo from 2009. And he just sat there. He didn't cry, not anymore. He didn't say a word. He just sat there, and that was where Phil found him the next morning when he came to tell him Carly had said no, that she was in love with another guy. Phil found Dan, just sat there, head bowed, eyes staring at the photo, softly breathing. And at that moment realised how much he meant to the younger boy.
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