Butterfly Kisses||Phan Oneshots

21: Carly||Part Two

Title: Carly
Genre:Angst, Breakup

Summary:Dan was depressed and he knew it. Well not depressed, he hadn't seen a doctor who could confirm it for him, but he was very sad. Sad enough that every time Phil left for a meeting he would sit staring at that one photo he had saved on his phone of them back in 2009.
Author: AmazingNicola on Ao3

Warnings:Past Breakup, Breakup, Depression
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"Dan?" Dan chose not to look up as Phil sat down on the bed next to him, "Dan please" Dan didn't want to face him just yet.

"Phil I don't want to hear it, I don't want to hear about Carly, do you really think I want to hear about her after last night?" Dan replied, voice trembling as he stares at the photo.

"No Dan, Carly said no, she said she was in love with someone else. His names Gerard apparently, black hair, small teeth, she said he was beautiful"

"I'm sorry Phil" Dan looked up for the first time, expecting to see tears in Phil's eyes, but there was none, if anything it was joy. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah I guess, at first I was upset that she left me, then angry she'd led me on, but then I realized that it was for the best. If she didn't love me then she shouldn't be marrying me, I'm glad she told me now instead of at the alter or something." Phil said, a smile making its way onto his lips.

"True, and now I guess you don't have to think of all those horrid wedding planners you would have to of met, or the constant stream of family wanting to congratulate you." Dan laughed.

Phil rested his head on Dan's shoulder, and looked at the photo Dan was clutching.

"I didn't even know you still had a copy of that photo, I have it on my phone I think, but not a hard copy." Phil said, "It's a great photo though, one of the best."

"Are you kidding me? Look at me, I look like a foetus, and that checked shirt, it's not black! What was I thinking?!" Dan said, in between laughter. "There are so many better photos of us, like the one at the Brits, or the one with Nick Grimshaw and the quiffs!"

"Yeah I agree, this one is a pretty rubbish photo, it just holds so many memories, because without this photo we wouldn't have any of the other photos." Phil said.

"Actually Phil even if when we met we didn't take this photo, we would still have had all the others, when we met we didn't have to take this photo." Dan replied, sarcastically.

"Yeah yeah Daniel, you know what I mean" Phil sighed.

"I get you, don't worry Philip." Phil threw his arm around the younger boy, nestling into his neck.

"Remember, back in 2009 when we said we were going somewhere, that this YouTube thing would pay off and we would be famous, I never imagined it happening, never. But look at us now, a radio show, millions of fans, hell you got a phone call from Pete Wentz yesterday!" Phil exclaimed.

"That was Grimmy's fault." Dan answered, "He didn't want to call me, Grimmy made him."

"But he wouldn't have been able to if he didn't have your number, which he did. We made it Dan, and if it wasn't for us meeting neither of us would have this, we've done it Dan, and I couldn't be more privileged to call you my best friend." Phil said, voice dropping to a whisper.

"Best friend, yes of course. I'm surprised your still here to be honest. In fact why are you still here? Is this some big speech and in the end you're going to break my heart and leave me, because that's what it seems like." Dan said, his voice cracking towards the end.

"Dan no way! I'm never leaving your side, no matter what. In fact, even if you want me to I won't. I'm here forever, sorry."

But that's all they were, all they ever would be, best friends, those words sickened Dan. Phil would never love him the way that Dan loved him. Phil must not care about him being in love with him, honestly Dan would rather Phil shouted at him and kicked him out than this not knowing what Phil thought of him. Was Phil disgusted by him? It didn't seem that way, but then Phil is a great actor when he needs to be, or maybe he didn't mind, or maybe he felt something back. Probably not Dan thinks, he did propose to another girl last night. Dan didn't understand the older man, whatever was going on in his head didn't make sense to him. This would be the part when Dan would lean over and kiss Phil, and then pull away and apologize, but this isn't a cheesy phanfiction, Dan sort of wishes it was, it would be so much easier that way. With its plot line and suspense, Dan always ended up with Phil in stories; why couldn't that happen in real life? Life wasn't fair, why couldn't he read minds; that would make it easier, he could just read Phil's mind and find out what he wanted and what he thought of Dan and everything would be okay. But alas no, all Dan could do is wonder, and wonder is what he did.
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