Butterfly Kisses||Phan Oneshots

14: Jealousy's a Bitch

Title: Jealousy's a Bitch
Genre: Jealous!Dan, Angst

Summary: Dan and Phil have a huge fight, Phil thinks dans going to leave and sees his wedding suit in the closet, he puts it on and cries horribly, then Dan comes in, then it gets all fluffy"
Author: FireonnotisDaniel on Tumblr

Warnings: Jealousy, Fighting, Angst
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"Dan, stop it seriously." Phil said.
"No. Phil answer me, why have you been texting him?"
"Dan me and him are just friends. Are you seriously accusing me of cheating on you? Do you really think I would be engaged to you if I didn't love you?"
"Phil you can drop the innocent act." Dan snapped, "I'm not thick, I can read."
"And what can you read, Dan?" Phil asked, "The fact he asked me to meet up for a coffee with him to catch up, I said yes. That's it."
"But why the fuck do you need to meet up with a coffee with him?" Dan replied, "Why could we not go? Why does it have to be with him of all people?"
"Dan I was friends with him for a long time before my little fling with him. And that's all it was with him. A fling. He encouraged me when I was nervous about us to go for it, he was happy to set me free to be with you."
"Oh well how very fucking good of him, Phil." Dan snapped sarcastically, "And what is that supposed to mean anyway? You needed his permission? Or do you regret it?"
"Dan, for Christ's sake will you let me-"
"You know what" Dan shouted, standing to his feet, "fuck this, I'm done"
"wh-what?"
Phil was startled by the slam of the door.
Dan was...done?
He couldn't think straight. Dan is the person who he spends all day everyday with, Dan is the person he lives with, Dan is the person Phil has planned to spend the rest of his life with. Phil didn't know what to do, he was genuinely scared that Dan had gone forever.
The thought scared him, Dan had become a part of him. It wasn't just "Phil" anymore, and it wasn't just "Dan" anymore, it's "Dan and Phil" or "Phil and Dan". Everyone knew they came as a two. They were inseparable.
"I'm not staying here on my own" Phil muttered to himself.
He couldn't stay here, in their home.
He didn't think Dan was coming back, and it was all his fault.
He knew Dan was insecure. He was so insecure because of the amount of sacrifices he made for all of this to make, he's scared of Phil running because he relies on Phil. And in a way, Phil relies on Dan too. Phil relies on Dan for the constant smile on his face and the warmth in his heart.
He loved Dan for that.
He hated how fast Dan could take it away though.
Phil pulled out a bag from the cupboard and began stuffing things inside- he only needed a few day's worth of things. He'd have enough strength to return for the rest of his things then.
He swung open the wardrobe doors and there it was, staring him in the face.
His wedding suit.
The suit he was due to wear in 37 days.
Phil's heart sank before it quickly shattered. He gulped and grabbed hold of the hanger, his hands shaking as he finally took hold of it. He laid down the suit on the bed and undressed. Phil's fingertips then connected with the zip of the protective cover as he pulled it down. Each tug at the zip revealing more and more of the suit he is now convinced he will never wear for its purpose.
Their wedding.
He grabbed the pants and slowly placed his legs inside, sliding them up. All he could imagine was what Dan would look like in his. How they would look together stood at the end of the aisle holding hands, how they would look during their first dance.
"Why am I doing this to myself" Phil whispered as he buttoned up the crisp white shirt.
He could imagine himself having to fix Dan's tie once they had met at the altar, tugging at it so it'd look perfect on the wedding photos with Dan trying to swat Phil's hand away from him.
Phil batted down his now fastened purple waistcoat before he slipped on his jacket. He retrieved his shoes from the bottom of the wardrobe and placed his feet inside before quickly tying the laces. He sighed and sat on the edge of his and Dan's bed.
That's when the wave of emotion hit him.
The first time he's wearing this should be a happy memory, the nerves of waiting to go to join in partnership with his best friend. Of having to finally confess in front of a room of people how much he truly loved this great man, who he had watch grow into an unrecognisable version of his former self. He was so proud of Dan.
The tears just continued to fall and they wouldn't stop no matter what. Everything in his life had become centred around Dan, and although that is usually a good thing, there are times like these where it's the worst feeling in the world. Because your happiness depends on them.
Phil was startled yet again by more slamming of the front door.
"Shit" Phil thought. He could see a glimpse of his reflection.
He didn't want Dan to see him like this and he didn't want round two of this argument.
"Phil" Dan called.
Dan could hear sniffling and shuffling coming from the bedroom.
He was horrified with what he saw, "Phil" Dan whispered.
"I'm-I'm fine" he mumbled in response.
"No you're not" Dan replied, he sat next to Phil on the bed, "Phil, I'm so sorry."
Phil stayed silent, he didn't know what to do. He didn't know whether to thank Dan or whether to apologize too.
"I shouldn't snap at you" Dan mumbled, he began playing with his hands, "I just get jealous...because I love you. And I don't want to share you."
Phil smiled slightly at the ending, "I know how insecure you get at times Dan, so I should have discussed it with you first. I'm sorry too, I hope you realise now that I really do love you."
"I do" Dan replied, "I knew it anyway, it's just sometimes you make my head fuzzy and I get confused."
Phil nodded.
"You look good in your suit" Dan stated.
Phil laughed slightly, "Thanks. Not exactly how I imagined wearing it properly for the first time."
"Sorry." Dan said before frowning slightly at the bag he could see, "Why do you have it on anyway?"
"I was going to pack up and leave...I thought I'd really messed up this time. I didn't want to have to live here alone with the memories. I opened the wardrobe for some more clothes and I saw this hanging up. I just felt like I needed to put it on."
Dan stayed silent, but simply comforted Phil by placing his head on his shoulder. They stayed like this for a while in silence.
"Dan, do you believe in soul mates?" Phil asked.
"Uh, I don't know."
"Like, do you think we crossed paths for a reason?" Phil explained, "Do you think we were always going to meet and fall in love?"
"I think we were always going to meet. Because we're too similar not too. But I think the falling in love happened by us wanting it to work." Dan replied, he thought about what he just said for a moment, "We've worked hard to keep this relationship, I'm not having no fate crap taking the claim for that."
Phil laughed and kissed the top of Dan's head. A very simple gesture that always meant a lot to Dan.
"And now were inseparable" Dan said softly, placing his hand over Phil's and squeezing it tightly, "You're stuck with me forever."
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Sorry I haven't been updating, my phone was broken and I was waiting to get it fixed.
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