You're All I Have (A FrostIron Fan Fic)

Chapter 27

Tony opened his eyes to see he was still laying in bed. He rubbed his eyes and realized it was just a dream. "Fuck my life." He said as he got up and went downstairs to the garage. He began to work on a newer version of his Mark 42 suit trying to make it bigger and better than before.

"How ya holding up?" Natasha said as she walked into the garage.

"Natasha I'm fine. I'm just working on a new suit." Tony said, not looking up at her but trying to focus more on the suit.

"You sure? You know you can talk to me." She said as she walked over to him.

"I'm sorry but the last time I did that you put me in a padded cell for three months." He put the tool that he was using down and looked up at her. "Am I wrong?"

Natasha sighed. "No you're not wrong. But we were just trying to make sure you were actually stable."

"Stable? That's your excuse for throwing me into that insane asylum? Natasha there is no excuse for you guys doing that. There just isn't." Tony said before going back to  work. He wasn't going to argue with her because it would just go no where. 

"I'm sorry Tony." Natasha said then walked out. He was left alone to work on his suits. For some reason his house felt bigger now than it did when Loki was around. Something about him doesn't feel right anymore, like his heart is broken but it's so subtle that he can't really tell. But why is he starting to think about him again? It's been three months. He is gone and he isn't coming back. 

"Bored." Tony said as he put down his tools. He wasn't really bored he was just empty. He had no desire to work on the suits now. So he got up and walked around the garage looking for something to do or just something to occupy his time. Then he found a gold chest, he doesn't remember it ever being there before so what does he do? Opens it. As he looks inside he finds tapes and other things that looks like Loki's. 

He picked up the chest and moved it over to his desk. He began to take out the items one by one, looking them over. There was a picture of when him and Loki first got together, they looked so happy. Then he found a tape, he went ahead and put it into a player and watched. It was him and Loki dancing together. They were laughing and having a great time. Tears began to form in Tony's eyes as he took the tape out. He put it down and grabbed another, putting that one in the player.

"Does my bow tie look straight?" Loki asked Steve. 

"You look fine Loki stop worrying about it." Steve said and smiled. It was on their wedding day.

"I just don't want to mess this up, Steve. He is all I have. He is all I need." Loki said. It was obvious how nervous he was. 

"Just relax. You'll do great. Tony will love you no matter what happens out there. And if you make a fool of yourself he will just laugh with you." Steve smiled. They both looked so happy. 

"Okay. I think I'm ready." Loki said and took a deep breath. 

"Alright. I'll be back." Steve said and walked out. The tape ended and Tony was left there with tears now streaming down his face. What did he ever do to deserve this? He got up and walked upstairs, he couldn't handle looking at more tapes. They just made him feel even worse about everything. He went into the bedroom and sat on the edge of the bed. 

"Loki.." Tony said. "If you can hear me, if you know I'm here. Please help. I know what I did was wrong, I know I shouldn't have blamed you for anything. I was an asshole for doing that and I'm sorry. I just want you back. I want you here with me. I want you in my arms and I never want to let you go. Please. Come back." He took a deep breath and waited. Nothing happened. "Loki come on I know you're listening to me. Please come back to me." Tony said again. Nothing happened, it was just silent. "Please?" He asked. The entire place was  dead silent. "O-okay. I see. I didn't want you back anyway." Tony began to cry. He felt so empty inside he doesn't know what to do anymore. He laid back on the bed and kept crying, just hoping Loki would show up at his door and hug him. He needed someone to help fill the void left by Loki, the only problem was that one person that could help is Loki. 

"Please don't leave me here alone." Tony cried. He couldn't stop crying, no matter how hard he tried the tears just kept coming. As he laid there alone life just seemed to stand still. He didn't want to be here anymore, he wanted to be with Loki and Steve. As he shut his eyes he wished to follow them. He wished to open his eyes and see Loki and Steve both standing there with their arms open. He wanted to see them. He wanted to die.