Teardrops Turned To Words

"It's not your fault."

"It's not your fault."

I know it's not my fault

I know I couldn't save her

I know one extra hug, one extra smile, one extra compliment

Wouldn't have worked

I know

"It's not your fault."

I know it's not my fault

I know me begging her to help herself wouldn't work

I know me trying to get her to understand wouldn't work

I know she thought differently than me

Believe me

I know

"It's not your fault."

I know it's not my fault.

I know she was a foot in the grave when I met her

I know being a friend wasn't enough

I know I couldn't have helped her

I know

"It's not your fault."

I know it's not my fault

I know my tears did nothing to help

I know my words held no comfort to her

I know my anger towards her for treating herself so bad was the opposite of being a friend

I know

"It's not your fault."

I know it's not my fault

I know I couldn't have prevented it

I know I couldn't have possibly guessed she would do it

I know I couldn't have known she'd do it when and where she did

I know I couldn't have been there to stop it

I know

"It's not your fault."

I know it's not my fault

I know it's not my fault that she stopped eating

I know it's not my fault that she started cutting

I know it's not my fault that she took all those pills

I know

"It's not your fault."

I know it's not my fault

I know

But

What if

It was

"It's not your fault."

"What if it fucking was?"