Teardrops Turned To Words

i don't understand

i don't understand. i don't understand why people pretend to like people they don't. i don't understand why people care so much about what others think. i don't understand why people would rather hurt others than help. i don't understand why people think it's easier to hate themselves than to love themselves. i don't understand why people use words as weapons instead of tools for art. i don't understand why people like to physically, emotionally, and mentally scar each other rather than heal each other. i don't understand why people change who they are for others instead of themselves. i don't understand why people fear change so badly they're willing to harm others. i don't understand why people can't see that love no matter between who is always love. i don't understand why people don't take metal and emotional illnesses seriously. i don't understand why money is more improtant than saving lives. i don't understand why the amount of paper deemed worth something that you have basically decides your fate. i don't understand why people abuse others. i don't understand why some children have to grow up without someone who loves them. i don't understand why some people have so much money that they can't even count it yet there are hundreds that starve everyday. i don't understand why people made war a reality. i dont understand why people are so quick to judge each other. i don't understand why racism, sexism, and homophobia are still real things.  i don't understand why physicality matters more than a good personality. i don't understand why people made the world so ugly. i don't understand why people hate people. i don't understand why power is more important to some than others lives. i don't understand. i don't understand why people would rather hurt people than compromise. i don't understand why pain overrules love, or hope. i don't understand why even i sometimes do these things. i don't understand because the world is such a beautiful and wondrous place and people can be just as beautiful and wondrous and yet we blame things on society when we ourselves are society.   there is so much i don't understand. one thing i will never understand is why i can't fix it.