Life As It Is

Over thinking

I was already awake
Because I couldn't sleep
As a soft blue came through the window
My hand hesitated to run through your hair
And then I realized couldn't smell you anymore
because you smelled like me
or I smelled like you
I wondered if you loved someone too
I wondered if you thought of me as much as I thought of you
I wondered if I cooked dinner the way you liked it
I wondered if you were still mad about what slipped out of my mouth last week
I wondered
Then you smiled because my hand tickled you
And you made your way around my waist and said "are they eating at you again"
And then those words meant more to me than 'I love you'
And my heart didn't feel like it was clawing its way out of my chest anymore