We are all entitled to be beautiful

Chapter Twenty One - Trapped in the Memories

Rose:

Every thing hurts. I feel like I can't breath. Figures flash before my eyes, a translucent substance surrounding me.

One figure approaches me, my eyes are still blurred with tears, from watching everything happening, every nightmare ever bad memory flashing before my eyes. The bad over powering any good memory I ever had corrupting it. Every good memory destroyed.

I can't handle this anymore, everything seems so real.

"Because it is," whispers a cruel cold voice.

"It's not," I try to reason with myself. This happened before,not now. Right now Xavier's out there trying to sort everything. People know the truth, but sometimes the truth is too much to handle.

"This is the truth,he doesn't love you, I don't love you,"

The figure stepped forward and it was...Xavier.

"You're...not real," I stammered. Clutching my head in my hands.

"I'm just as real as you, which begs the question what is real and what is not?" his eyes were as glassy as every but with a sudden coldness in them.

This isn't real, this isn't real.

I can't do this anymore, I don't even know what I did was worth it. I'm dying and for all I know its madness in the real world.

This isn't real.

I look straight at the cold eyes of the doppelganger.

"You're not him," I spat.

"Oh sweet little Rose you have no idea do you,"

Little rose, sweet?

"Just stop please, I don't want this I didn't want any of this I'm 13 for goodnesssake!"

It felt like a lucid dream, but wasn't. I wasn't in control, trapped in my own thoughts my own version of who I thought Xavier has become.

All wrong I had got it all wrong, I did the worst thing I possibly could be done I judged him by his cover.

When really it was protection, with knowledge comes great power and with power comes responsibility. But no one cares do they, power corrupts.

"I'm in control here aren't I," I chocked out my voice raspy. "This chemical hasn't been tested has it,"

Silence.

Cold eyes.

Smirks.

Glares.

"Your the person I thought Xavier had become, the one that evil person who calls her self the Queen wanted Xavier to become. My vision blurred cracked from the pain the agony of betrayal."

"Burning tears ever coating my broken heart. I'll admit it. Ever since Xavier read me Robin hood taught me how to read and write because no one else had time, I fell so deeply in love. Not a sappy romantic chick flick love, the love of friendship, the love for the person who was there when you needed someone to tell you, it's not going to be okay but I'll be there ready to help you get through this mess."

The murky fog like color surrounding me made me feel dizzy but I kept talking.

"You finally get it,"

"What I'm the chosen one and I need to believe?" I laughed bitterly. "No, I'm not. I believe that everything happens for a reason, I don't know what's going to happen to me to anyone and that scares the hell out of me,"

Sarcastic claps echo through the walls of my mind.

"You really are brave aren't you Rose but still you haven't admitted it properly?"

Thoughts clouding my brain.

"My heart is wounded, my soul broken but my mind still works,"

Everything stinging.

"I..." can't say it.

Heart racing.

"I'm..." too stubborn.

Vision bluring.

'I was always..." too late.

Heart breaking.

"I am, and have always loved..."

Darkness.

"But she's going to be okay," mumbled a soft voice.

Falling.

Soft sobs.

Never ending pain.

"Yes...  She's going to be okay,"

End of Part 1

Note to reader:

And that is the end of part one. You can choose to continue to read if you want to. This book was meant to be a stand alone but I wanted to make it either a trilogy or a series. "Books two/ part 2 will all be in the same books for ease!"

That means I can leave on the biggest cliff hanger ever.

Jk, J.K Rowling, has amazing cliffhangers of course.

Anywho this story was  meant to be a stand alone and you can read it as a stand alone if you want to . I'm going to be editing this book and the next book is called, We are all entitled to be free.

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