I didn't cry today
I guess that was a miracle all on its own
Instead the weight of sorrow sat on my heart and grew heavier as the sun sank.
It kept me awake late into the night
And made me want to talk to you.
But I can't do that
Because if I do you'll give me hope
And you'll trade me pain for hoping
And I will have to start the weeks of crying all over again
And I'm so tired of crying
So I'm missing you in silence
Boxing up the words I have for you
Locking them away for someday or no day
Letting them gather dust
Waiting for the sharpness of them to stop pricking my heart
For the want to be in your arms to fade like the ink of an old photograph
