You deserve so much better.
That's the second thing people say
"You deserve so much better"
Tends to come right after
I'm so sorry.
The first thing isn't something you doubt
But the second thing is
Especially right after your heart has been forcibly ripped in two
The droplets of shock are still suspended in the air
You're still bleeding disbelief
You
Deserve
Better
You want to believe that
Especially when you see him with her
Her
Whom he promised it wasn't like that
Whom he promised was just a friend
Whom he said he'd never leave you for
And maybe it was true
And maybe it is true
But you stalked his social media
And hers
And you saw them together
And you saw her in his shirt
And you saw them communicating
And you saw her profile picture is both of them
And you couldn't see anymore because your vision blurred
You want to believe the words
"You deserve better"
Because it hurts
Because it feels like your soul has left you
Because it feels like your chest is caving in
Because it is a never ending torment of your mind
Because you had to delete social media just so you would limit your sobbing to once or twice a day
Because you keep asking yourself why
Why isn't it you who he can talk to
Why weren't you enough
Why doesn't he love you anymore
Why did he lie when he said forever
Why isn't he reaching out to you
Why doesn't he want to fix this
Why can't you breathe without him
Why did you let yourself fall
Why did you love with all of your being
Why did you even date him
"You deserve better"
Is what he said to you when he shot you in the heart
When he ripped out the veins of trust
And tore through your soul
You deserve better
Is something you want to believe
But you don't
You deserve better
Are words that leave a bitter taste in your mouth
Because you love him with every bit of you
And you want him back
Though he is the source of your pain
All you want is for him to be the one
Who comforts you
