Don't think of him
If you do, you'll just slip further into depression and you'll miss him so much your bones will ache with remembering
How it felt to be tangled together
cuddled on the couch
wrapped in the comfort of belonging
You'll remember the warmth of him: your cheek pressed to his chest, hearing the rhythm of him
You'll remember the times he said he loved you
And wonder if he lied
You'll wonder if every sweet kiss was actually sour, but you didn't realize
You'll wonder if the sweet nothings were just candy payment for company enough to rid him of loneliness
Anyone might have been right for the job
You'll wonder if it was all just you playing pretend too seriously
You'll wonder if you can erase it completely
And then you'll hope
Because despite it all
You still love him
You'll hope because he said he still loves you
You'll hope he'll come back
You'll hope you'll be together again
You'll hope you'll feel his warmth again
You'll hope you taste more sweet kisses
You'll hope your bones will stop their aching in his arms again
But then the pain of it all - the missing pieces of your heart - will come back
So don't think of him
If you think of him, you'll hurt
Don't think of him
