Broken

Chapter 3

(The picture is of Sunny!))

Once we got back to the house I just went up to my room, and I see that the painting has been done, the walls are white now, it's such a simple colour. Most of the boxes are gone, so I went to go take a look at one of them. I open one of the boxes and find pictures, they're of Nathaniel's sister, Gabriella. She had long blonde hair, and these magnificent blue eyes, like mine. She wasn't smiling, looks like they were at a dinner party or something. I put the picture back in the box and left or there. I decided I should unpack my things.

Hours later, I hear a knock at my door

"Can I come in?"

I couldn't really tell who it was so I said, "sure"

"Hey" it was Nathaniel

"Hi" I was just laying on the bed, in sweats and a long sleeved shirt.

"Why do you hide so much?" He asked me.

"I just think I'm better of alone"

"You think? Whenever I want to be alone I never go into my sisters room, there's too much in here that reminds me of how alone she really was, but when I come home and she's here and I come in, she realizes she's not alone, till one day, I didn't come home, I was stupid and reckless, I knew what my sister was going through I didn't tell anyone, and that day when I didn't come home, she was laying in the hospital bed, alone, so don't tell me you're better of alone, when clearly no one ever is. I remember that it hurt me, watching her hate herself so much, seeing her hurt"

He just stares at me like he thinks I'll say something the look in his eyes, broken and hurt, it's something I see on my face everyday.

"sometimes it's hard to move on" I say, and he immediately leaves slamming the door behind him.

What did he expect? A little emotion, a little sadness about what he's going through? What doesn't he understand about me? I'm as confused as he is, I can't seem to feel anything but my own sadness, and my weak state of mind.

Sunny knocks at the door as he comes in and pokes his head in,

"Aria, Rosalie wants to see you in the kitchen"

I walk down the stairs with Sunny trailing behind me.

"Aria, how was the tour?" She asks

"It was okay" she gives me a big smile, what I'd give to be happy again. I barely remember what it's like to smile and wake up happy, instead I wake up with thoughts of being happy by just not existing anymore.

"How did you find my birth certificate?" I ask as I look up from the floor

"It was government property, I don't handle papers like those, Derek usually does, but you shouldn't disturb him now, he's working"

She has the same brown eyes as Nathaniel, but hers glisten with joy and pure happiness, while Nathaniel's are so blank. I decide I should leave,

"Aria, wait, I didn't ask you to come down to talk about the tour or Derek I called you down to talk about you"

I take a seat ready to take in what she's about to say.

"Aria, what's the last thing you remember before the school shooting?"

Flashes of bullets and guns and blood come to mind, I can't grab ahold on them.

"Money, drugs, guns and pain" I say in the most simplest form

"You mean the manager screaming for money, the cocaine, guns in the safe, and you?" I nod, she got everything.

"Aria, I want to know, what you think about when I talk about the shooting, everyone says it was the drugs talking"