Johnyong "What Is This Feeling?"

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Taeyong

'Hey Johnny!' No, that sounds too clingy. Or should I say, 'wassup Johnny', Ugh! I feel too scared to even face him. I pressure myself to walk faster to get to school early, but I finish standing between blocks thinking about him here and there. Yesterday when Johnny fell I felt a strange feeling on my chest, it was a feeling I only felt with my ex-boyfriends but this time it was much deeper and more realistic. His eyes make me feel a strange comfort and protection something I never felt with anyone, not even my parents. My parents kicked me out of the house when they discovered my sexuality preference, at the age of 18. But I got over it and I can manage living on my own, in my little apartment. Life has not been easy in the past either, all those lies and betrayals my "friends" planned on me really left me weak. That is why I left my current living area at Daegu to move to Seoul, South Korea.

I feel much stronger now, it is just hard that things are happening so fast, I need someone to depend on. Johnny seems really nice and perhaps he is lonely too, we could make such good friends. Friends is the word right because we met yesterday and he was kind enough to help me. Oh, maybe I should help him today. I reach for the doorknob and turn it slowly, it is still early so....who cares! Then I hear a loud thump at the end of my hallway. Without thinking about my actions my feet sprint towards the sound. Woah! It is Johnny himself laid flat on his back on top of the dirty floor wearing what looks like new ripped black skinny jeans and a white buttoned shirt complimenting his tall figure. I reach out to help him but he declined my offer. But then he smiles at me, and chuckles a little to ease the the situation off which only makes me blush. Yeah I'm blushing, in front of the one and only Johnny Seo! As soon as I realize how hard it is to control the burning sensation in my cheeks, I am forced to say bye, "Umm...ummm, b..b..bye Johnny see you in class!", What was that! My voice stuttered while speaking and I sounded so high pitched. Ugh, why does Johnny make me feel this way. I keep walking this time straight to class and open my book, I stare at it not reading but thinking. Maybe I actually like Johnny Seo, more than a friend. But I need a friend just that, "ugh!", I need to just forget about it.

Johnny

His voice sounds so angelic. I love his smile and worried looks. I have concluded to what I really feel for Lee Taeyong, I am in love. Yes, I have never gotten such a deep feeling in my heart than that time Taeyong looked straight into my soul, my heart pounded in a messy tempo. Worried that I can make any mistakes today in class while sitting next the Taeyong makes my stomach jump and twist, I just can't embarrass myself in front of him. It would be my end. I turn to face forward and walk inside my class. He was already sitting there apparently reading an investor book, I quickly adjust myself to get ready for class.

At the time school is over I think over what horrible things I did today and I'm already back home, just laying on my bed remembering those events. One; I nearly stepped on Taeyong's right foot on our way out of class, I apologized like crazy. Two; I forgot to take notes for my upcoming quiz that is on Friday, literally in two days! Three; I nearly fainted while walking home, because being completely honest I do not have time to sleep and if I do, I spend time applying for part time jobs hoping into getting accepted one day. In the end today was not a good day. But I found the light in Taeyong's smile that he gave me in the morning. I don't think he noticed that I did see a smile spread across his face as I stood up and laughed. He is so cute when he smiles. I wonder if he smiled a lot in his past. I should open up to him, or should I not?