Johnyong "What Is This Feeling?"

Our hangout

Taeyong

Finally school is over. Wait is it Wednesday?! Oh no! I had the club meeting during lunch. I completely forgot, maybe because I was being a stalker....just kidding! But maybe a little. I will just tell them tomorrow in our next meeting after school that I accidentally forgot, and that I won't miss out again. I hope the club leader, Ten accepts my apology. Being honest, he is the best dancer I ever met, better than me myself. I am getting a lot of inspiration from him in becoming a good dancer too. Oh well, I just got home and I feel hungry. Should I start eating yeah....*calls pizzeria to order pizza of course*

Time skip the next morning

I'm slowly opening my eyes realizing that its a Thursday.  After a few seconds I rapidly take a shower and eat breakfast. I decide to speed walk to school because I supposedly overslept 13 minutes.

Yes! I made it in time. I watch the classroom clock ticking as I sit down, placing my books on the top of my desk. Johnny might be coming any seco-"Hello Taeyong!" I turn to face the door noticing Johnny walking his way to the desk on my right. "H..hi", I can't speak he is not the type of person who makes the first move or who starts a conversation. Yes, I learned a lot about Johnny these past two days. "Would you like to hang out with me during lunch?" Wait what!?! Did Johnny finally ask me to hangout with him. I cannot stop that stupid smile from creeping on my face. It is such an uncontrollable feeling the one I'm feeling right now.

Johnny

Is it okay if I'm super excited over what could be Taeyong's answer. I can't help the urge of biting my lips, I'm desperate to know what he will say. Is Taeyong smiling at me? Yes he is! His eyes burying deep into my soul. But this time I notice something deep inside his eyes showing me his heart. He is hurt....and he needs help. Please, say yes Taeyong. "I...i mean yes, I will hang out with you at lunch!" His voice so bright and shaky. I really do love every thing about him. I need to tell him where he could find me so that we could talk peacefully. "I will be sitting on the bench near the field of our school." He smiles even more and nods. I can't wait for lunch.

Lunch time

I smile at everything and everyone coming my way. I am just so happy Taeyong accepted my invitation to hangout with me. I never asked anyone to hangout with me, not even Ten he was really friendly with me too. I should invite him with us soon. I don't know from where this boost of confidence came from, but I hope it stays so that I could make new friends. I need to get out of my comfort zone to accomplish new things.

Taeyong

I walk pretty slowly afraid that I could make a wrong step. I don't wanna embarrass myself in front of Johnny, he is really important to me even though I met him only two days ago. Something about his actions makes me think that he has been imagining something between us. I'm not complaining though, I feel pretty happy to know that. One more step and I will be right next to him. The butterflies I always feel with him taunt me down. I'm ready, "Hey, Johnny...umm how is life?" Wow, what an amazing question Taeyong. I think about my stupid words and suddenly the temperature in my cheeks increases. I try to ignore his eyes but then I can hear him speaking, his words making me face him, "My life does not make sense, I have no passion and my parents don't care about my happiness. They....they just want my money because we are near the ground. I...i feel useless."   My eyes tear up. Damn it! I'm so sensible for this type of stuff. I try to fight the urge to hug him. His voice sounded so sad and meaningless. I can't help it and I move my arms in between his elbows and his stomach, squeezing his waist under my grip, pressing his chest onto mine. I don't want to let go even tho he doesn't hug me back, I feel happy. Johnny takes several minutes to break the silence, he whispers into my ear. "Taeyong I don't want to suffer anymore, I want to stay away from my family and discover why I am meant to live. I don't want to be a burden for my family." Sobs, some quiet sobs come out of Johnny's mouth and he suddenly wraps his arms over my shoulders. I squeeze him even tighter. Several minutes might have passed and we still don't move apart from each other. Maybe he wants this to happen much as I want. I really want to become his best friend. Even though I can't imagine myself hiding away my feelings. I NEED him. He needs someone, could I be able to help him? I don't really know but I still want to be there for him.

I realise that lunch will soon be over. Dang! Time flies so fast. I need to say something to Johnny, I can't just leave him with a blank response. "Johnny, please talk to me when you need someone. I want to be your friend, if possible I want to be your best friend. I want to get to know you better."

Johnny

I start backing away from the hug. He wants to be one of my friends! I'm so happy, my life feels accomplished. He is the reason why I feel like school is an adventure but what makes me even more happy is the way in which he never let go of me. Taeyong is more than a friend to me now, he is like my best friend. Last time I had a best friend was in my senior year at high school. His name was Jaehyun but I haven't heard of him or have seen him ever since we graduated. I wonder if he is doing okay. But right now Taeyong is such an angel that came to help me. "Taeyong you are my best friend, you became my best friend the day you helped me stand up after I fell. No one has cared about me as much as you did." He smiles his eyes shining my heart warms up and I'm pretty sure my face twisted into a weird smile. I don't smile often since high school but Taeyong makes me feel different. I bring my phone out of my pocket. "Ugh! It's already time to go!" I yell at everything and everyone except Taeyong. I was getting emotionally hit several minutes ago, and now I have to get back to school mode. "Don't worry, let's hang out tomorrow!" Did Taeyong just say that he wanted to hangout with me tomorrow too? Oh. My. I. Am. Speechless. Before I have time to respond Taeyong continues his sentence with the same energetic tone. "I don't even have to tell you about meeting tomorrow. We are best friends and I can hangout with you everyday, bye Johnny see you tomorrow!" He leaves smiling at me like crazy and runs away laughing. Taeyong is indeed cute, I'm just happy to know that he is happy. Or I hope he is, tomorrow will be my day to ask questions.