Johnyong "What Is This Feeling?"

umm, hello?

Taeyong

I wonder how long Johnny will take to finish his project. Could he be struggling with it?

I shouldn't worry that much about it. Instead I should wash the dishes while watching the afternoon news.

   

   
     I'm almost done with the dishes. Someone's been knocking on the door a couple seconds ago. It might be a stranger. But I'm not sure.  As I make my way towards the door my phone starts ringing from my bedroom table. I haven't changed the song.

       The my ringtone is my relationship song. The relationship song I called, Jaehyun's and mine. It's named Sun and Moon. It's beautiful, I don't think I'll change my ringtone in a long time.

     I decide to grab my phone from my table and accept the call.

The caller is Johnny!

"Uh, hello Johnny!" I greet being quite cheerful.

"Taeyongie, I-I want you to know that I'm not going to be back today." Johnny said in a serious but depressed tone. 

I-I f-feel, why am I feeling sad?

It's because I love him right! He makes me feel happy when I'm sad. But why does him leaving me, make me feel empty?

"It's okay, but...are you coming back today?" I ask impatiently, my nerves are killing me and the stress of being alone again eats me up.

    I didn't mind isolation after moving here. But having Johnny's company in a day, already changed my thoughts on things.

       "I don't know, but I'll be back by tomorrow morning." Johnny answers sounding more stressed by the second.

        Maybe something happened to their project. I don't want him to think that I'm nosey, I'll just try to understand him now.

"I hope you have a fun time" I tell him lamely. I might sound ironic, but I really hope he has fun. Life should not be wasted.

"Taeyong, t-take care" Johnny said back to me, I swear on my life that his voice shook.

Could he be cryi- before I could have said something my phone is completely black.

Ooh, for dears sake!

My phone is dead and I couldn't finish the call with Johnny.

That person on the door is still persistent about me opening the door.

I should just go see who it is.

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Jaehyun

I've been thinking a lot,

about me,
about Taeyong

and about my mother.

She has a heart disease, and I really want to help her. We are poor and have nothing to buy the medicine with.

Taeyong has a rich family.

Have you ever wondered how he got the apartment in this city so quickly?

His father found it and gave him some money.

But Taeyong still didn't want to accept all the money.

Taeyong is the heir of the prestigious Leuse company.

        The Leuse company creates rich and popular perfumes. These perfumes are sold for men and women.

I always thought that Taeyong was a good friend and a nice boy.

I liked him as a friend.

But...I have to be his boyfriend.

My mother told me long ago, when I was around 16, that I had to make him fall for me.

She told me to make him mine.

     My mother wanted me to have a rich and relaxing life.

     But I didn't want to make Taeyong love me.

     Later over the years my mom got worse, I had no alternative but to give up school and work. By the time I started working Taeyong was my boyfriend already.

        I didn't want him to distrust me and question me why I needed his money, so I asked for it after our 6th month together.

     He was always sweet to me,  but I don't remember why I treated him the way I did.

Yes, I yelled at him,
I pushed him away at times,
I told him to stay away from me.

He obeyed, but I kept pushing him to his limits harder. All I remember from the past are yelling and arguments.

Everything else is a blurry picture.

I don't know what has happened to us.

But one thing is for sure.

Taeyong has to be mine sooner or later.

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Taeyong

     I've never told any of my old friends where I've gone. But my best friend Taeil, can find me anywhere I go. He can somehow guess where I could be, and he'll get it right.

     "Taeil, h-hi!" I said to Taeil in shock. My mind is a mess, and his presence seems like an illusion.

"Taeyoooong! I found you!  How have you been? Do you like it here? Is anyone friendly?" He questions me in a joking matter. But I know for sure that once we sit in the living room, he is going to be full on police mode. Taeil won't let me live until he knows that I am safe.

"It's nice, I met some nice people. You might actually find them interesting." I reply him, he smiles and tells me to wait.

But, wait for what?

What other surprise am I having?