Johnyong "What Is This Feeling?"

not ever again

Taeyong

      What should I do? Should I say something to him? What could I say? His face is so beautiful!
   Johnny also has a toned body. Does he workout?

What am I even thinking?

Ugghh, why does this have to happen to me now?!

"Oh, I'm really sorry if I disturbed your personal space! I just wanted to check on you." Johnny explains, but I really don't mind his presence. It was the most intense feeling I ever felt in my life.

    "No, no, it's okay don't be sorry. Were you worried about my health or did something happen while I was asleep?" I ask him to know why he needed to see me.

  "Actually,  you worried me because you were crying in your sleep. Did something happen in it?" He said in a very relaxed tone, I almost allow my myself talk about it.

      I can't tell him about my dream! It would ruin my image to him?

      I want Johnny to stay with me, and not leave me like my other friends!

I can't tell Johnny, that I had a nightmare about Jaehyun.

    My ex boyfriend, forcing me to do things I didn't want.

    Jaehyun is that ex boyfriend.

That tortured and punished me.

He used knives and words. Like sticks and stones.

I'm afraid to let that happen again.

   I am still weak, but I'm trying to recover. I don't ever want to fall in that trap of his again.

Life could be harsh, but there is always that light at the end of the tunnel.

And for me........that light is..............Johnny.

       "Hey, are you going to tell me? I've been waiting for hours." Johnny whines with a cute baby tone while rubbing his eyes.

    "I'll tell you soon. But it's late now so we better sleep." I answer faintly, my body aches from its bundled position.

    "Oh, okay then, but please let me know about your problems. That's what friends are for." He said firmly, he can be very scary when he's talking in a serious tone.

     Johnny you are right, that is what friends are for. But I've never had great friends.

   Johnny stood up from his position and walked back to the living room, closing the door behind himself.

One day I'll let him know about my feelings. I'm still too afraid to approach him. If he says that he likes me back, I'll be dead.

Ugh, he is such an angelic person. My life is sweetened by him.

With him by my side I am no longer sad.

Oh no, my heart is warming up.

Ugghh, why can't I just say that I like him.

My face is heating up. Ughh, why am I reacting to Johnny like this.

Oh no, I will not be able to face him tomorrow without thinking about this. I should force myself to sleep, now!

    
     I can't sleep, Johnny why do you do this to me?

Johnny

Taeyong was tired, he needs to sleep. It has been only a week since his arrival and I'm making him worry about me. I should also support him and his works. I am being a bad friend.

"BLING BLING, BLING BLING, BLING BLING wanjeon-" oh no! Someone is calling me and I forgot to lower the volume.

It's my sister.

"Hello," I say to my sister.

"Oh Johnny, I wanted to know about the situation with our parents. Do you have any idea why they are moving out?" She asks me quickly.

My sister lives in the United States, she wanted to study medicine. Her name is Vanessa.

"I really don't know Vanessa." I say back, she must be studing or about to go to school.

"Oh alright, I have to go now bye." Before I could answer she ends the call. She is a very busy person.

My parents kept telling her to follow my steps but she understood that she didn't need to be like me. I told her to ignore them and to be herself.

I don't want her to feel pressured by them.

She is becoming a strong independent women. I love my sister.

I'm very tired, and tomorrow is going to be a long day.

The comeback is yekdbrnidhcudjdkisuhksbdjr......... I'm dead I am being bias wrecked by everyone. I love our boys so much, they work so hard for us. Let's work hard for them. I'm proud of all of us. I love you, please take care!💚💚💚💚💚💚