I Understand

Here Lies A Broken Girl

He has the voice of an angel.

His words are everything.

His words can lull you to sleep

Or keep you awake at night.

His words can make you smile

Or they can make you cry.

His words can encourage you

Or they can make you feel worthless.

His words can make all of the decisions for you

If you let them.

You used to think it was love

Letting go of all the pain he caused you

To free your hands so you can hold on to those rare good times you had.

You became dependent on him

For everything.

To make your decisions.

To make you feel a certain way.

To make you happy.

But you fell too fast for him.

He had you wrapped around his finger.

He controlled you.

And you let it happen.

You couldn't see it.

You were too blind.

Too gullible.

Too naïve.

And you were too scared to step up and say something

When you did see it.

But you,

Being the loving

Caring

Insecure self you were,

And may still be,

Let it go

So you didn't make him mad

And end up hurt.

But you ended up hurt anyways.

You believed every word he said. 

Like it was the last thing you would ever hear.

You knew he was cheating.

He came home drunk

With hickeys

And lipstick stains

And the smell of her perfume on his shirt.

But you didn't care.

You loved him.

You put his happiness before your own.

And that's where you fucked up.

You dismissed his stupid bullshit.

His lies.

All the pain he put you through.

And that's where you should've stopped it,

Other than dismiss it

And let it continue happening.

You said he didn't know what he was doing to you

That it wasn't his fault.

You tried to shield him from pain

By taking it all for yourself.

You tried to save him from himself

By letting him vent on you.

And it ended up destroying you.

You gave him your heart

And he played with it

Like it was a stress ball.

Like it was a punching bag.

Like it was some sort of toy.

And when he was done with it,

He threw it away,

Like it was trash.

Because it was broken

And he didn't care to fix it.

Now, here lies a girl who once loved with all she had.

Who gave life her all when it left her with nothing.

Who tried to not let it bring her down.

But most importantly,

Who never let others touch the ground,

And gave them the high they never deserved.

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