I Understand

Lies

Sometimes

The truth hurts

And you know it

But you don't want to hear it as confirmation

That's when you close your eyes

And adjust to all the stupid lies.

That will just hurt you in the end.

You already know

But you don't want to believe it.

You start losing sleep.

'It's better than losing him/her'

You say to yourself.

But it's killing you

From the inside out

And everything starts to fall off balance.

You no longer want to eat

You no longer want to keep up with work.

You no longer want to keep up with anything anymore

You start to lose interest in everything, especially the stuff you used to think was fun

And you start tumbling downhill, and fast.

You didn't want him/her to turn out like the others.

You tried so hard to make them The One for you

But that's not how it works.

They keep lying

And you dismiss it physically, not wanting to make them mad.

But mentally, you can't shake the feeling

And there's a reason for it.

You can't force things to work.

'You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink'

Your father once told you.

It was good advice from a difficult man.

This relationship was a train wreck in the making.

You thought it'd be beautiful

But it turned out to be fatal.

That's when you opened your eyes

And fixed everything that went wrong

But the pain still lingered.

And you let them stay.